time moves on.
my friends are going to become more and more distant as they find jobs and settle into lives. i am going to have to somehow find a way to become an adult in a world i do not wish to be prepared for. my parents are going to die one day. it seems impossible but it seemed impossible it would happen to my cat, and yet, here we are. life as i know it is rotting and at some point, maybe soon, it will collapse. i have no plan for this.
the world is burning in every way. every year a new facet of global warming sneaks its way into everyday life. the forest fires get closer. the mind of man is poisoned by the internet and it will only get worse. kids are being force-fed ai-generated content and alt-right propaganda as a surrogate for parenting and i cannot fathom what they will grow into. i used to think that we would overcome hatred and ignorance as the tetraethyllead-poisoned generation died, but i was wrong. they all just adapted to anonymous contrarian culture and are doing better than ever. everyone, everywhere is getting desperate and there is no solution. these are the good old days and they aren't even good.