two people who i care about and always will both cut me off without any explanation from either of them
im pretty sure the first person decided that i was too stressful and then convinced the second person i was trying to manipulate them or something it doesnt even matter, its not something i was ever allowed to dispute or even know what it was but clearly it was grievous enough to block me without explanation for, i doubt they'll ever read this, but if it was something i really did do i didnt do it knowingly and can only ask you to forgive me if for some reason you see this
i miss having someone who made me feel cute, who i could send affectionate little pictures i found on the internet to (the first person)
i miss having someone to show cute cat pictures to who actually appreciated them and i dont know if ill ever have a friendship as good to me as that one was (the second)
im sorry that i dont know what i did, but i will love you two for as long as i live
i miss the two people i felt like i could entirely be myself with.