I HATE THE WORD SPECIAL.
Oh, not in the context of objects, but in the context of people, referring to those who are not "neurotypical" as the book my parents got me (remember that thread?) puts it.
"Special" is a word that separates. It puts people in two groups, "special" and "not special." I don't like being separated for being "special." Oh, sure, I don't care that I have autism, I don't care if people call me autistic when I do something stupid, I just don't want people to judge me more harshly for it. I have a mental disability. A very small one, but I still have one. I don't want people to make that more than it is, I don't want them to separate me and say "This person is special; we have to take care of them because they're not as smart as us." That's what that word does. I get good grades, I actually try more to learn and love learning. I'm considering teaching other students, someone was absent so I taught them what we had learned and they said I taught them better than the teacher normally did. Is that below average? I have some trouble focusing, I might need a bit more time on tests since I get distracted easily, but does that make me below you? Do I need babysitting my whole life? No.
yeah some stranger told me to get off their server and called me special I didn't know them I'm pretty sure they're not even old enough to really grasp the full connotations of what they were saying
it wasn't a game where you could even ban people since host gets passed around based on who has the lowest ping to the proxy when the host leaves or goes over a ping threshold
this is just something to be angry about, I've been stressed lately because I've been staying up late and having trouble focusing on homework long enough to finish it.