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Off Topic / Re: I keep opening the forum to see if there's anything new and interesting on here
« on: March 11, 2024, 07:46:21 PM »I could write paragraphs about how awful this place was and all the reasons it became the way it did, but y'all have already done that ten times over, so I won't. I told myself I would never post here again, but the forum seems to be in its "sad reminiscing" phase, so I thought I'd post here. It played too big of a role in my life to not say something, and I'd be lying to myself otherwise.
I find comfort in knowing how many people here have changed for the better. Personally, I regret leaving such a poor final impression on the forums, becoming kind of a crotchety weirdo in the latter years. In fact, my legacy bothers me so much that I still hesitate reconnecting with old acquaintances, like those from Eksi's server back in the day. I guess I just have a hard time letting go of the past, despite how much I've matured since then.
...This is why I relate so hard to the "sad reminiscing" on here, having burned my bridges with the forums. Blockland and its community was both a great and awful influence on me. I was a misguided teenager like a lot of others here, and the forum (plus the rest of the internet circa 2010) made it considerably worse, but it also gave me one of the funnest creative and social outlets I've ever had. This was the place I met Eksi, who ultimately led me to making some lifelong friends. I moved to freaking Sweden to live with my boyfriend I met as a result of all that. I know Blockland isn't directly responsible for these things, but I believe it was fate that I had to go through the wringer of self-sabotage and introspection to get here--a place where I'm way, way, WAY, happier than I was before. It's how I've rationalized my past mistakes, at least.
I still dearly miss Blockland and the better times I had here. Recently I've been toying with getting a dedicated forgetaround server up and running, but I think I may just be chasing a memory. Maybe I'll pop up on the discord server sometime, but right now I'm just posting here as sort of a courtesy for the few who remember me: I'm not dead. I'm doing rather well actually. Life is weird but I think I figured myself out at least.