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Off Topic / Re: how have the last 5 years been for you?
« on: February 13, 2024, 06:44:15 AM »im happy to read this is working out for you.since this post i've socially transitioned. (and it wasnt harder at all, i was such a doomer when i wrote this post)
tw: common sense, gender dysphoria
a long time ago, while everyone was still frequently posting here, i was also in gender transition therapy and posted about it. i didn't suspect it at the time, but the hate i received for it actually did part in making me quit the gender transition therapy.
i can't blame it fully on what people have said to me, and threatened 'what would happen' to me, because i quit the therapy as 'non-binary'; figuring out that this was the way for me in life.
its now indeed 5 years or so later, and i haven't continued the gender transition therapy, im almost 26, and i know and can feel that this was a big mistake. of course there is still time, but im no longer a college student with less worries in my life. returning to gender transition therapy now will be significantly harder than when i was younger, along with having to somehow find out on my lonesome how to 'go back'.
this has always laid heavy on my heart to say and admit, its basically a 'they won' story, or at least thats how it feels to me, today. i can remember how i was linked a horrifying 'regret' story about a post-op transfemale, and how it left a mark on me despite blatantly being fake. a sort of 'shock story' to 'scare the transes straight'. i wish it didn't work on me as 20 something year old.
sooner or later im privileged to a inheritance which will majorly aid me in opening up room to live, and ill be returning to gender therapy, to finally become who i am.
