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Off Topic / Re: worries and thoughts
« on: February 09, 2022, 05:40:42 PM »i know its an obvious one but i really do fear death. i could drop dead tomorrow or in 80 years and i'll never know if its old age or a truck who missed a light, and its definitely stopping me from experiencing anything outside of my comfort bubble. i do not know if i believe in anything after, or if its just a one and done. i really just don't want to die is all.i have the opposite, i only fear death due to the pain it will cause my family. for a while last month i couldnt stop thinking about how gratifying it would be for someone to just gut me or run me over, purely out of self-hatred. im over that little spout now and do not wish to die in such a manner :D. but honestly, people dying before like 50 is far less common than you might think, and humans are a lot more durable than you think. ik it's scary thinking about the chance of dying everyday, but it's also best to think about how safe life is compared to like 100 years ago where people were just dying of cholera every week.