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Off Topic / Re: [MEGATHREAD] Personal Computer - Updated builds thanks to Logical Increments

« on: April 20, 2016, 09:08:14 PM »

how long has it been working?

More than a couple of months.

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Off Topic / Re: [MEGATHREAD] Personal Computer - Updated builds thanks to Logical Increments

« on: April 19, 2016, 10:30:26 PM »

has anyone here acutally bought a kinguin windows key?

I have. It worked for me. The windows activation hotline is now tolerable since you can do it from your smartphone now.

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Off Topic / Re: What Pisses You Off The Most Right Now? [Trigger Warning (Probably)]

« on: April 19, 2016, 10:05:13 PM »

Hilary beating Sanders in the NY vote. This was his chance and we let him down.

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Off Topic / Re: Back out of my hiatus. [Update on Depression]

« on: April 16, 2016, 07:52:09 PM »

It's great to see that you're doing better! What are you doing in college right now?

Thanks, and mainly my final project for game design in which I have to work with a small team, some thesis papers for certain subjects, and then just preparing for finals soon.

hi

Hey, how you doin'?

Yay! I'm glad to see you're back, definitely one of my favorite users.

Awwe! Thank you very much!~

i was put on zoloft too along with prozac for bipolar and depression. my life changed dramatically in a way you wouldn't expect. you would've expected me to get better, but i did not. i didn't have any emotions; i couldn't figure out how to use them anymore. i don't know if that happens to everyone, but do not depend on them. they're essentially a placebo (i ended up learning from the hospital i was in)

That sucks man. I hope you can get out of it soon and start feeling better. Depression is really a kick to the balls x 100.

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Off Topic / Back out of my hiatus. [Update on Depression]

« on: April 16, 2016, 07:41:03 PM »

Hey guys. I'm back from my (about a) month hiatus from the forums. I was turning into someone I really hated and I needed to take a break. I found that I was hostile, angry, and upset for no good reason. After going to therapy for a while, hanging out with friends, doing things that interest me such as drawing and gaming, and having people there for me, I feel that it's the right to come back. I made this post before I left suddenly and I feel like I need to put out an update for it. As for my depression, (the main reason why I'm even posting this.) It's gotten a hell of a lot better. I no longer feel [like] a void, and going on with my life has been a lot easier. I've stepped down from my dose on Zoloft and my personality has pretty much came back. I just just moping around and I wasn't like myself. I'm usually (at least I seem to think) a pretty energetic person. My friends tell me that I'm a lot cheerier, and honestly actually fun to hang around now. It's still lingering, but as I said before I can get through the day much easier now.

I don't expect or want to get anything from this post, I just wanted to let you guys know about my situation and my depression after basically falling from the face of the earth.

Oh, and college still sucks.

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April Fools 2016 / Re: Who are you?

« on: April 01, 2016, 05:30:31 PM »

how about we play guess who.

is your name a pokemon?

DJ Charizard

How the forget? Nah you probably just had the tagging plugin still installed. I can see pie crust's post right above this one.

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April Fools 2016 / Who are you?

« on: April 01, 2016, 05:18:12 PM »

And who am I?

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Drama / Re: tenshi - constant loveual innuendos / harassment

« on: March 16, 2016, 06:27:38 PM »

man, DJ, that just makes you look gay

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BLT2erau3zo

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Drama / Re: tenshi - constant loveual innuendos / harassment

« on: March 16, 2016, 06:19:07 PM »

Probably too late but.

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Drama / Re: tenshi - constant loveual innuendos / harassment

« on: March 14, 2016, 08:36:37 PM »

Im like a bill cosby rape victim. I'm coming out of the blue/my hiatus. :^)

Me and him shared pics. Quite a number in fact. (No, I'm not giving them to you. I don't even have them saved.) And I thought it/I was kinda special but looking at it now he's just stock hoarding richard pics of forumers. Well I was a dumbass. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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Off Topic / Re: My psychologist diagnosed me with Depression AMA

« on: March 05, 2016, 01:04:45 PM »

disregarding the pills:
1)do ur emotions fluctuate often in a smale timeframe?
2)do u feel like u suffer from feelings of emptiness and boredom?
3)do u engage in self-damaging acts such as wasteful spending, substance abuse, or binge eating
4)do u have an unstable image of yourself, always wanting to change
5)are u paranoid of what people think of u, sometimes in unreal situations
6)do u engage in frantic efforts to avoid abandonment by people u depend on
7)do u see people as black and white when first met
8)do u consider urself impuslive or capricious

sorry for the amount of questions im kind of diagnosing u for something else here lol

1) Yeah somewhat.
2) Every now and again
3) I guess wasteful spending but I feel like I can control that.
4) Yeah.
5) I can get really self conscious for little to no reason in a lot of situations.
6) I guess so/yes.
7) No.
8) Not really.

Depression is forgetin weird. The longest time I thought depression was about being sad and gloomy all the time, but for me it's kind of like just being bored and uninterested about everything, and a lot of the time I feel like I have to fake emotion or else people will think something's wrong with me.

This is extremely true. Before I had my depression I thought that was what depression was myself. Though, now that I'm going through it, it seems very much like what you've said.

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Off Topic / Re: My psychologist diagnosed me with Depression AMA

« on: March 05, 2016, 12:49:17 PM »

do you feel sad and hopeless or do you not feel any emotion at all

It's more of like a void most of the time. Back when I had my first experience with depression right after my great grandmother passed away I felt like I saw the world in black and white and I pretty much just moped around feeling hopeless.

goodluck friend if u need some help PM me

Alright.

do the pills help you, or do they have no effect?

They help me get through the day. Usually they keep me calm and in a pretty neutral/good mood or state.

are you gay

Im biloveual yes.

1) What are the side effects of said pill
2) You often can't even tell when you're talking to the person face to face

1) They change how I act/my personality in a way. Though this can be a good thing. When I'm off the pill I can get really emotional or pissed VERY easily. With the pill I'm more mellow and take things less seriously.
2) This. Talking to my psychologist I was pretty calm. Though when I answered his questions he saw that I was going through it. I remember a few questions out of probably 20 being "Do you feel anxious abruptly through the day or at all?" and "Do you ever feel an overwhelming emotion through out the day? Does it cause you to not want to do certain activities or become less social?"

Some people with depression have this thing called dissociation, where everything sort of stops being 'real'. The best way I've heard it described is that what you're seeing looks like a video game or something you're viewing through a computer screen rather than actual life.

What accompanies this is sort of a really uncomfortable desensitization to everything, including pain. In order to cope with it, some people cause themselves pain, which they can still feel if it's heavy enough.

u kno when u smoke a cigarette u get relaxed?
its that. its only for the moment, and a lot more destroying and painful, but it makes u feel better.

Ah okay. Thanks for clearing that up.

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Off Topic / Re: My psychologist diagnosed me with Depression AMA

« on: March 05, 2016, 12:36:19 PM »

Do you have any suicidal or self harming thoughts?

Nope. This is one of the things I never understood though. I can understand why some people with depression can have suicidal thoughts, but I can't understand self harm. How would making yourself feel more pain solve your problems?

do you get more depressed thinking about how you have depression?

Not when I think about having depression, more of just thinking about the things that are causing my depression.

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Off Topic / Re: how does blf write?

« on: March 05, 2016, 12:31:02 PM »

what you put in

http://pastebin.com/Uzg9k7EA
It was an old writing creative writing assignment in my sophomore year of high school. Only thing I could find on my PC that was recent.

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Off Topic / Re: how does blf write?

« on: March 05, 2016, 12:27:40 PM »

So apparently me and Purple Metro write exactly the same.