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I remember playing this awhile back. Didnt you say you were gonna make it a left4block map?
you're like four and a half months too early then
kore said the n word oncethis is epic
. But I'm bringing this up and making a different announcement because it is important to me, so lets try and make it a great one eh? Tell your buds maybe to get on one more time, or you yourself. People grow up and move on, it's just the way life goes, so I think because this has been a pretty stuffty year; Why not? If this is how I can generate some cheer and community I'll keep doing it till no one ever joins. We'll see, Merry Christmas and I hope to see you all.Kore also drinks ketchup like its Go-GurtDon't forget ranch, and blue cheese dressing.
This is an interesting point. Let's get philosophical here and I'd appreciate any feedback I could get from you guys.
I keep regressing back to old behavior despite multiple visits to rehab, which I feel like they shape up my behavior pretty well. I always have a firm resolve to do the right thing when I leave, including staying off drugs, but part of keeping clean is staying away from bad behaviors and attitudes.
So why do I keep going back to this? It's like if I got into a car accident-- suddenly, I'm extremely nervous and cautious when I drive now, because I want to avoid another crash from happening. But over time my driving habits loosen up and I'm basically back to where I was, because the memory of how terrible the accident was has now faded.
It's the same for this exact scenario. If you put this exploit in front of me when I just left rehab, I can say with almost certainty I would have just reported it. But I decided to take advantage of it and see it work. Is it because it's interesting? Tempting? Do I lack morals, or do I just not care?
The only answer I can come up with now is that yes, I don't really care. Happy people seem to have a strong moral code and well, they have no problem upholding it because they're happy enough to. I don't feel happy and haven't for about two years now. If only I could find another source of happiness, then maybe I would start caring for myself and my reputation with others, but I'm very lonely and feel neglected by my friends enough to where there's nobody to even be there to stick me to it.
This isn't an attempt at begging for sympathy, I'm genuinely interested how I can become a better person and actually stick to guidelines instead of caving into temptation like this. Thoughts welcome.
