Peebs i'm gonna be real with you, I feel like you live in an area where being gay is basically a death sentence, like Oklahoma or northern Texas. every post you've made pertaining to your real life has in SOME way had something to do with you being scared of being called gay (
"brought a friend over, not for gay love or anything", the whole
"I hate the gays" rant from last year, saying someone you didn't like had "gay" in his face, this thread, etc) not saying you are, but you definitely don't want to be mistaken for it for some reason. if i'm right, you have to get out of there somehow. you're in some backwoods community of christian conservatives probably who'd skin an assumed gay man for simply looking at them.