You might want to eventually tell your parents you're gay.
If they rage at you (more or less) tell them that acting that way is bigoted and handicapped
Don't get me wrong SetGaming, but I honestly empathize with your situation for where you are. Let me put this into an simple brown townogy. As much as I completely agree with Red Spy and everyone else with this idea along the lines, I feel that at your age, it would be as if you're adding fuel to an uncontrollable fire to begin with. My take is that, and i'm not claiming to know anything about your parents, but they may not know how to handle that, being likely that they grew up in what the previous generation believed in. Again, i'm not claiming to know anything about your parents or being some kind of expert, but from what I understand, the older parents of this generation generally seem to "love" their children; which seems geared toward possession of their children, rather than appreciation, if that makes sense. I'm not saying what they think is wrong however, it's not the only thing that's right as well. Generally speaking about parents with this mindset at this point, if I can describe it, it's as if they only want for what the parent wants them to gain, rather than the kids to gain anything for themselves at the moment. This is obvious because they see that school is the most important thing. With that being said, and this can tie in to the matter of confidence as well, but do you have any talents that you really like, or have anything that you feel it may be worth the time looking into? If not, I suggest and encourage you take the time to really and truly, but simply just think to yourself about seeing the person you want to be; for yourself, before going to bed each night. Later in life, you certainly will have more control about what you want to develop, but you can start early and just think about what it is to yourself. I hope any of this helps you out.