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Off Topic / Finally got a call back for a job

« on: November 09, 2016, 06:34:27 PM »

After applying to literally 40 places, one place has finally gotten to me. However, we couldn't negotiate an interview because they have it scheduled when I'm in school, so they're gonna call me back by Monday for a different date.

Honestly though I might have to move to a different city sometime in the future. Jobs are so scare where I live.

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Off Topic / stuff that other people think is normal but you find really weird

« on: November 02, 2016, 04:39:59 PM »

i find random "hey how are you doing today?" from strangers quite odd. that being because i have to ask them the same question back. i don't know... it's a weird thing to me

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Off Topic / what kind of editing techniques do people use in youtube poops?

« on: October 29, 2016, 12:27:02 AM »

quality youtube poops that is, not just inserting some sound clip of "SPAGHETTI" and reversing the clip.

a good example is something like this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tBMNgCSsQdg

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Off Topic / i'm a dumbstuff (i skipped my act test)

« on: October 22, 2016, 04:13:16 PM »

over the past month i've been experiencing debilitating panic attacks (i'd have to say at least 2 everyday). for the past week i've been thinking about just skipping the test. thinking about skipping it curbed my anxiety finally, so i just... skipped it. i'm a dumbass but i didn't know how to stop the panic attacks--- i couldn't take it anymore.

i don't know how i'm going to be able to get into college if i can't take the test.

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Off Topic / considering NOT going to college

« on: October 12, 2016, 06:24:32 PM »

all my life i've kind of felt obligated to go to college, and now that i'm almost there i'm not really feeling it. what i want to do doesn't apply to any specific major. honestly the only thing i like to do is to fix people's computers and i'd like to get into web design.

the only real reason i'd want to go is that it feels like college is my last attempt at meeting people/finding girls.

i'm due to take the act next saturday, but i'm honestly thinking about skipping it (i know, stupid me)

do you guys have any advice or relate to this in some way?

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Off Topic / is "the earth is flat" a meme or wot

« on: October 11, 2016, 04:21:03 PM »

i've been seeing an influx of these people recently. is it just a new meme or are people legit this stupid

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Off Topic / is it a good idea to buy a gaming laptop for college?

« on: September 27, 2016, 06:50:10 AM »

i can't really take my desktop to college (which can pretty much only max out source games), so i need a laptop for school and gaming. the problem is, i wouldn't have the funds to do this. i'd have to buy it with student loans or something.

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Off Topic / I have 80 dollars, what's a good portable speaker in that price range?

« on: September 25, 2016, 10:35:35 PM »

Either thinking of a portable speaker or saving up for a LG stylo 2.

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Off Topic / taking act test october 22nd; i'm nervous as forget

« on: September 18, 2016, 09:17:00 PM »

i finally said forget my anxiety and signed up for the test. however, i have no clue how to study for it. also i hope i don't have panic attacks during the test.

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Off Topic / what's the most beautiful song to you?

« on: September 15, 2016, 07:46:31 PM »

for me that would be shine on you crazy diamond by pink floyd. the guitar part is so simple, but so powerful. i literally cry sometimes when listening to it.

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Off Topic / what weird stuff does your body do?

« on: September 14, 2016, 09:24:00 PM »

when i eat spicy foods, my nipples get rock hard. what weird things does your body do?

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Games / looking for some friends on ps4

« on: September 10, 2016, 08:36:04 PM »

most of my real life friends have actual lives, so they're not on as much. the games i play the most are pretty much just rocket league and black ops 3 (heads up: i'm not too good at either).

PSN: j25610

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Off Topic / yaya 17 years on this forgetin planet

« on: August 10, 2016, 05:30:07 PM »

birthday was 2 days ago, but heyyyyyy... now i can buy rated m games by myself.

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Off Topic / do you cuss around your parents?

« on: July 24, 2016, 01:07:25 AM »

it's 1 am and i'm bored, so answer this pointless poll.

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Off Topic / The quality of my life is better /blogland

« on: July 19, 2016, 03:19:44 PM »

Not too long ago, I used to ponder what the forget was wrong with me. Nothing in my life really felt real; it was like a depersonalization. Like I was living in purgatory, slowly descending more into hell with every passing week. Enough of that edgy stuff.

I've always had confidence issues, so I was lonely. Maybe the depersonalization wasn't such a bad thing. Nothing felt real, so I just said forget it and did whatever without a sense of my mind holding me back on anything. Suddenly more people were interested in talking to me. I'm not sure why, but I gained my sense of being. Maybe the change in my lifestyle had an influence on it, I don't know.

I starting hanging out with more people outside of school. I didn't really feel shy anymore because I basically did whatever during my depersonalization, and they accepted whatever I did then. I finally got off the computer for more than a week. The last time I did that was literally 3 years ago when my PC took a stuff.

My psychologist says it's a good conflict resolution technique to write about your life as if you're writing someone, so I felt sort of obligated to give some sort of update of my situation (though most of you won't care). I might not be on as often, and some of you will appreciate that. No hate needed, just love.