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« on: October 09, 2015, 10:12:34 AM »
so i've been depressed for a while. i'm not entirely sure what caused it, but it's been digging at me for a while. i also have a problem with anxiety in social situations and am very introverted because of it - i have like 2 friends.
to make matters worse, my parents got divorced recently. to be honest, all my dad wants to do is argue and make problems out of everything; don't get me wrong, he's my dad and of course i still love him, but he's been really loving difficult with him as of late.
today, he just pushed me over the edge. i retaliated - something i'd never do - and he just started to scream stuff at me and slap me. i went to my room and locked my door and over the past 2 hours he's come by saying it's my fault that the divorce happened, etc.
i'm so stressed/angry/depressed that i'm actually thinking about Self Delete. i know it's greedy and a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and that i shouldn't be thinking about it at all, but i can't help but think if i did.
i know this isn't Yahoo Answers or anything and i probably shouldn't be saying this on the BLF but i'm too afraid my parents will see that i'm trying to ask for help and here's the only place where i can really say any of this