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« on: September 22, 2014, 10:04:34 PM »
Yeah we have all had tough lives. Mine is quite similar
Ever since around puberty I have been feeling ill 3 out of 5 days. I have been depressed for the last 4 years, stopped going to school. My parents try to make me. One day my father forced me up and was pushing and shoving me. So I pushed back and he grabbed me and almost knocked me out with one punch (what a fit father he is). I have never been close to my father, he is just an entity to me now, a worthless being. I stopped going to school altogether which almost tore my family to pieces and I did not want that to happen for my mothers sake (I for one did not care what happened to my father). So I went back to school. It has been a few months since that and my depression is getting worse. I feel disconnected from everyone. I feel like my "friends" aren't even there for me anymore, they're always off doing god knows and I feel like a third wheel all the time. All in all I have given up on everything worth while in my life and now I have no goals. I don't really have a family. I probably would have committed Self Delete if not for my mothers sake. You see she has already lost one child to miscarriage and she is pretty much my only friend in this world.
Hopefully all will be better soon all I want to do is get out of school and leave everything behind.