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« on: January 14, 2023, 08:30:08 AM »
Well, since we're trauma dumping now lmfao...
This game and its community has always felt like this weird collective enigma to me. Large enough to actually be a substantially diverse community, but also small enough where everyone more or less knows everyone and all their dirt over the years...and now its just one big messy pot of bittersweet? nostalgia. This game and multiple people within it have had profoundly negative and positive effects on my childhood and upbringing. To briefly preface- losing my parents a couple years ago was that traumatic event that happens in your life where your brain chemistry gets kinda altered and you look at life and just see things differently... so not only had I never dealt with personal loss before, it was both of my parents within the same year. So as a fresh 21 year old, this was the point where I'm(and still to this day) having periods of internal reflection and just re-brown townyzing my childhood and the interactions I had with my family.
My first research link was from some dude that was on BAC's Town server in 2010. I was 10 years old just making a house after school. I can trace all the issues this game has given me back to that one loving link lol. Also, I forgot the name(s), but do you guys remember the webchats people here would go on back in like 2010/2011? There is no reason me at that age should have been on those either. All the obscene and explicit conversations on those chats and these forums/in-game. Meatspin links on every other server which now that I think of it was probably my first ever consumption of gay media. It was just very confusing at the time and jumpstarted a lot of loveual exploration I definitely was not mentally or physically ready for, and neither was my family. My father tried so hard to keep me and my brother off these forums for years after he went through the forums and my posts as Jacky in like 2012. I had so many interventions and countless conversations about the weirdos and creeps on here and I would always be so frustrated and annoyed with how he would censor and monitor stuff growing up. But as a 23 year old with an adult perspective and trying to make peace with him now that he's gone, I can't really blame him especially looking back on the degeneracy here.
I've loved legos and building things since I knew how to walk. I have 10k+ hours on this game. I will always love Blockland, but you mfs did some damage ngl lol
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