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Off Topic / Re: day discussion topic i guess [day 250]

« on: March 19, 2017, 03:16:46 PM »

back on campus. still torn. still tired. still not sure how2function.

watched about half the episodes of The Prisoner (1967) though. so that was interesting. getting past my anxiety disorder to finally watch some of those.

wondering if maybe the things that are stopping me are all right here in my head.

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Off Topic / Re: night discussion topic i guess [night 302]

« on: March 19, 2017, 01:41:03 AM »

maybe ur blowing this out of proportion

yeah, edited. good point.

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Off Topic / Re: night discussion topic i guess [night 302]

« on: March 19, 2017, 01:10:12 AM »

i basically gave up, then someone suggested an alternate perspective on the whole situation and now i'm torn again. my only reliable contact in the situation is effectively permanently unavailable. i have nothing to go on and it's basically impossible to tell AT ALL whether ex is angry at me or is pushing away due to depression, anxiety, insecurity, etc.

in the former case i obviously don't want to touch the situation or everything will implode. but in the latter case, the best thing i could do would be to try, try again. i'm getting the entire gamut of advice; i've heard suggestions from fellow panickers, from tough guys, from wiseguys, from kids, from elders, from recluses, from sociopaths, from everywhere in between, and basically as far as i can tell there is no right answer.

-gah, hear me man? gah.-

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Off Topic / Re: night discussion topic i guess [night 302]

« on: March 18, 2017, 10:03:55 PM »

you lucky son of a bitch. if i'd had my own car a month ago none of this stuff would have happened.

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Off Topic / Re: day discussion topic i guess [day 249]

« on: March 18, 2017, 02:27:48 PM »

i'm so loving tired i don't know how i'm going to function at all when i go back to college. this was supposed to be recharge but instead i got sick and also very sad.

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Off Topic / Re: Motivation

« on: March 18, 2017, 12:32:51 AM »

i get this problem too.

If you get an idea, think about it for atleast an hour to see if it's worth executing afterwards

i took this kind of advice and now, instead of never finishing anything, i never START anything.

i don't know the solution.

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Off Topic / Re: night discussion topic i guess [night 301]

« on: March 17, 2017, 10:02:42 PM »

my friggin stomach isn't doing so well now. seems it disagreed with dinner.

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Off Topic / Re: State senator found with teenage boy in hotel room

« on: March 17, 2017, 05:48:09 PM »

I don't think 'less government control' would have an impact, but I do think conservative policy could lead to more creepphillic acts if their stance is more punitive.

More punitive response -> less child enthusiasts attempting to seek help before the commission of any act -> more child enthusiasts kiddy fiddlin'

i think it's somewhere between that and repression->forbidden->HOTT

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Off Topic / Re: night discussion topic i guess [night 300]

« on: March 16, 2017, 11:40:18 PM »

the pain won't go away

it's not going away and it maybe never will.

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Off Topic / Re: day discussion topic i guess [day 247]

« on: March 16, 2017, 08:14:25 PM »

god damnit ur just so positive i love it don't ever stop

i was that positive for a while

then stuff hit the fan. rip my positivity. i envy you mega bear.

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Off Topic / Re: day discussion topic i guess [day 247]

« on: March 16, 2017, 07:29:06 PM »

gaaaahhhh

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Off Topic / Re: night discussion topic i guess [night 299]

« on: March 16, 2017, 01:00:26 AM »

oh my god i am a loving idiot.

i just realized why ex didn't tell anyone she wasn't speaking to me anymore

she probably feels like they'd pressure her about it. OF COURSE! I AM SO loving STUPID!

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Off Topic / Re: my name randomly got an extra letter

« on: March 16, 2017, 12:02:30 AM »

King of the Phil

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Off Topic / Re: 6 years and 4 days here

« on: March 16, 2017, 12:02:02 AM »

someone ran the numbers on how many forumers have probably died, ballpark estimate, no idea what specific people might have passed on though.

aside from thorfin.

i have changed, but my negativity and idiocy has not. life surprised me with a boon a while back but i forgeted it up and lost it and i'm right back where i started.

sperg.

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Off Topic / Re: day discussion topic i guess [day 246]

« on: March 15, 2017, 07:00:50 PM »

It's possible that you may still be overreacting to the whole situation

i mean... ex made clear she didn't want to hear from me again. so i don't really think i'm overreacting now - my past overreactions, however, CREATED the very reality they were borne of the fear of.