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« on: February 11, 2015, 10:43:27 PM »
A, B, and C, or because of a certain piece of steam chat, O, N, and C.
"If plan A and B fail, I guess I could just hang out with you. I'd suppose you'd be plan C."
"C for Cameron?"
"If it's like that, then it'd be O, N, and C."
"Who's N?"
I assume he had a clue of whom I was speaking of.
Plan O (A):
I will bring a rose to my crush, Olivia, and ask her out to dinner/movies for Valentine's day.
I have nothing, I guess I'll just wing it from there and hope for the best.
Plan N (B):
This plan is for if/when olivia rejects/dumps me. I shall ask out Noel, assuming she doesn't replace the phone number. I have had a crush on her since meeting her at Cameron's 13th birthday party. It's been small after a couple weeks of knowing her, but ever present. Now that Valentine's day is right around the corner, I'm almost hoping for Olivia to reject me, so that more shenanigans and drama could play on.
From what I know about Noel, she could either have a boyfriend, or not have one and be crying because she's alone. If she is sad that she's alone, she might accept my offer, and life will be good. It will be kind of weird since we are in different schools, and even different grades. (I'm in 9th, she's in 7th. She acts much older, however.)
I know that it's a bit forgeted up that I'm thinking of an old crush rather than a new, and better one. But I genuinly worry about Noel, oddly enough. I care about Olivia's emotions, too, but she seems like a more hardy individual, not prone to emotional distress, besides being diagnosed with depression, of which she said is because "I have random bursts of happiness and sadness, much more happiness though."
Maybe it was how Cameron treated her. She says stop, he continues, she gets angry, he continues, she gets depressed, he does not care, he just continues. Many of his actions include: Dog piling on her, wrestling her, ignoring her statements about HER GRANDFATHER'S RECENT DEATH AND THEN ASKING WHAT'S WRONG, and pantsing her. Maybe these are normal things, but I would not know. My only sister is much older than me, and is an authority to me. I can only think worrying thoughts about how she must be taking the divorce. (Cameron's dad divorced Noel's step-mom rather recently, and already found another woman that has a child.)
Plan C:
If plans O, and N fail, I shall just chill out with my best friend Cameron, watch stuff on netflix, and talk about life and school and people we miss. Hopefully. He'll probably just be on his phone/laptop goofing off the entirety of the movie.
I wrote all this down to collect my scrambled thoughts on the upcoming holiday. Notes will be in parenthesis.
I feel like getting something out there, being able to talk about something that's encumbering my conscious. I could only ask one thing of you: What are your thoughts?
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