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Off Topic / Re: Land of Dran

« on: March 14, 2023, 06:26:39 PM »

this looks really promising but it needs more charm for sure

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Drama / Re: Plastiware was arrested for child research

« on: March 11, 2023, 11:38:50 AM »

I know this post is literally a month old at this point but I have thoughts and I can't contain them, I need to say something.

Recently I worked up the courage to look at some old pictures of myself back when I was 8 again. I look at myself, so small and innocent. All I can think of is "how could you?" Those were the worst things that ever happened to me. And they're still out there.

I feel like I'm guilt tripping here. Like I'm just saying stuff for no reason. But really, how could you? Judging by what other people said about the law that prosecuted you, and by the nature of this post, "photos of nudists" is certainly a light way to put it. You got more specific later on, but why try to downplay it?

You say that you know how bad it is, that you're genuinely sorry, this and all that. But why would you feel the need to come back, and "clarify" like this? It downplays it to a degree. Those are the worst days of those children's lives, forever immortalized, and you played into that. Maybe you could have been photos of me on there, but I get the feeling you prefer little girls. I know people who were put in photos like these, and maybe "home movies" if you had those too. It is the worst thing that happened to them, if they can even remember that period of their lives and aren't just dealing with it's shadow. I won't be much more specific than that, it's their story and their voice, not mine, but I want you to understand how devastating this is. Every day I have to look in my dad's eyes and see a man who tries to forget how he failed to protect his son, a mother who constantly blames herself just for being mentally distracted by a loving divorce. We have to live with that for the rest of our lives.

Perhaps. They should have asked the people that you saved abuse imagery of what they thought should be done to you.

What do you mean here? You do not straighten out child enthusiasm. This is a life long condition. (https://www.missingkids.org/content/dam/missingkids/pdfs/publications/nc70.pdf) If you wanted to straighten this out, you need to make a lifelong commitment to never hurt children again, to do what it takes to find the supportive people who can help you refrain from doing that, and if you aren't mature enough to do that yet, let the system do it for you. I know it sucks. This isn't a burden anybody asks to be born with. But it's what you have to do. There's no paying back debts for this, not a convenient outing like with depression where you overcome the things that make you sad and retake your life. This is something you have to live with as much as I have to live with it's consequences. The fact you think you can run away from this makes me worried. I don't want you to harm anymore children, and I know that you don't wanna harm anymore children! But if you want to "repay your debts" to society, you have to take the precautions to make sure that no more harm can come again, and I'm sorry but thinking of it like this doesn't do it right.

The link I put in parentheses above is a criminal report on child molestation and other love crimes like child research possession. It's from the framework of the criminal justice system, rather than a psychological one, and isn't intended as an end all be all manual, but I think there's some wisdom and insight to be held regardless. Maybe you or others in this thread could find insight and know where to draw lines and how to recognize behavior and deal with it in appropriate ways. I can't stress this enough, the only way to move forward from this is to take all precautions necessary to ensure you never harm or exploit minors ever again, and I'm sorry but your posts don't give me that impression. I want to believe you aren't capable of that anymore, or at least have the ways to deal with it so that harm is minimalized. But I can't, and that scares me. The way you're speaking about this and getting off the registry like it's a blemish in your life that can best be scrubbed out and not a deep indictment of your character and indicator of major problems that need life long correction is just terrifying. I don't want you to try to forget about this because it's going to come back up again and might get people hurt in even worse ways, least of all yourself. And I don't even want to entertain the possibility that you're lying about all of this and have relapsed a long time ago.

tl;dr If you want to "pay your debts" to society, you should try living with it and coping just as the victims have to deal with it's aftermath.

great reply ❤️

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Drama / Re: So I've been cancelled on twitch with my Blockland history. Warning TLDR

« on: March 11, 2023, 01:49:40 AM »

Go back a few pages I literally said I'm not a victim.

saying something doesnt make it true. its like expecting to say "im sorry" and the world moves on. your actions and the way you are responding to everyone clearly show you think of yourself as a victim...

i just read that tweet too and wow, ill give you one thing tony im convinced you arent tribal. im not sure you are or arent anything because reading that and then reading your two threads has made it evident that you arent really anything more than whatever gets you attention. all that effort trolling and being nasty and manipulating your way to wherever you are atm all to be a blip on the internet major yikes and Im sorry for whatever home life brought you to that place

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Drama / Re: So I've been cancelled on twitch with my Blockland history. Warning TLDR

« on: March 11, 2023, 01:37:19 AM »

This is giving Ports reply in his creep thread........

youre not a victim dude, like literally on the FIRST page of this thread someone basically said the same and your reply was that your cancelling was unwarranted because... you didnt PERSONALLY attack them? you treated everyone like stuff for way wayyyy too long like its one thing to grow out of it but its another to troll everyone you have ever interacted with until it personally affects you and then suddenly you have an epiphany.... thats not an epiphany its ego

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Off Topic / Re: blockland: the community that killed the game

« on: March 11, 2023, 01:32:52 AM »

this game was basically the start of my internet life. I am thankful for it in many ways and made great friends, learned a lot of good things, and witnessed bad things (the hard way).. especially after my experience on the TBM forums (mix networks) trying to contribute to their gallery and feel like I was somebody, basically an innocent kid and in the end they all stuff on me for trying to fit in, then turned around and sent me (an 8-9 year old) at the time lots of gay/questionable research and send (probably sell) my email address to some black market internet stuff. I was about 9 years old and knew those guys were richardheads anyway but only within the last few years did I stop to think and realize how forgeted up those people were.

Isjix!!! a name I havent heard in forever. I do hope youre doing well (this is Colten btw but I doubt u even remember me lol)

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Off Topic / Re: Forumers that are newsworthy

« on: February 11, 2023, 01:07:10 AM »

idk anything about civdiv but are you mad hes in the military and is fighting in ukraine?

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Games / Re: Interspace - Space Sandbox Game Project

« on: February 06, 2023, 05:10:23 PM »

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ it's early right now but if i make it look and play dramatically differently and people still make the comparison i can just call them stupid which is the goal

if you are gonna have this attitude as a dev i dont imagine a bright future for this game lol

spritework does look nice though, if not a lil too messy, is this a one man project

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Off Topic / Re: what are some of your favorite recipes?

« on: January 22, 2023, 03:01:12 PM »

When there's a written recipe with a ton of detail but no ingredient amounts you have to scroll past to get to the same exact recipe but with the ingredient amounts this time.
Pretty good example:
https://seonkyounglongest.com/tom-kha-gai/

now why on earth did i put myself through that

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General Discussion / Re: Blockland Publicity Stunt

« on: January 21, 2023, 10:41:38 PM »

We could have multiple people post videos with thumbnails of vague poorly taken photos, and dramatic clickable titles, . such as "Nevada Zoo Massacre", and you click on the video and its just a insane Blockland video of something disturbing happening at a zoo.

The idea is that multiple of these that would just pop into everyones feed and they'd wonder: "What the hell is this game?"

say what lol, why would we want to advertise to the type of people who want to see a massacre at a zoo

and why would people then go on to share whats essentially a spam link?? why would they even watch the video??? how is it getting onto everyones feed????

Churning out some sort of content that is linked to a permanent game presence might work, but you would have to solve some issues:

1. what content are we going to make? how will this content translate into people buying the game?

2. when they buy the game, how do we create an inviting atmosphere? what do we do to keep them logging in? people will abandon a dead game

3. how do we address the fact that the dev is not only MIA but is a generally controversial person? anyone who bothers to look into the game will figure that out

I honestly think BL's best chance at getting any notoriety is some sort of video chronicling peoples experiences with not only the game BUT the general atmosphere of the early internet (through the lens OF the game) - people dont care about this game its nothing close to unique anymore, so you would need to answer the hardest question of all which is them asking

4. why is this relevant to me?

and an easy way to answer that is with nostalgia, which makes it more personal and shifts it from a them (viewer) and us (blocklanders) relationship to an us (people who used online gaming as a social platform, those who remember a time pre-social media where MMO's/Online gaming communities were huge & filled a major social role in our lives)

we need some kind of video about our interactions and relationships that spawned FROM the game, not about the game, and then we could contrast that with the current state of the game & community. A lot of people can relate to a time when online gaming was not only an entertainment thing but a social thing, which is something that isnt as focal anymore with the popularity of facebook/twitter/etc

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Off Topic / Re: what are some of your favorite recipes?

« on: January 21, 2023, 10:24:34 PM »

biggest online recipe pet peeve is when they hide the recipe between 6 paragraphs of text talking about their grandma, her life philosophy, and their favorite childhood memories.... like idgafff gimme the recipe -_-

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Off Topic / Re: blockland: the community that killed the game

« on: January 20, 2023, 05:03:47 PM »

this thread is super refreshing to see in 2023. it gives me a flash of something i feel like was around a decade ago

i probably won't spend too much time waxing poetic here since i'd rather save my energy for whatever sob story i drop in colten's inbox. but i will say this

i completely agree on the topic of badspot's negligence and the community it fostered. i've been preaching that outside of the forums to other former players for years now. but i'll spend the rest of my life trying to find the words to describe the actual impact that about five (active) years of the forum had on my life. it's crazy to think that it's been equally as long since i removed the forums from my bookmarks bar in 2016 as it's been since i first started playing the demo in 2009. ugh.

i think some of that description i'm looking for i've found in the emotional roulette i go through every time i meet someone random on the internet who later reveals themselves to be a "former blocklander." most of the time you get someone who just played the game. but sometimes you get split between two completely opposite groups of people that were raised on the forums:

• those that soaked in the toxicity and still bear some kind of allegiance to eric hartman. the people that stayed because they became more like the loudest people already here
• those that will spend the rest of their lives growing in spite of the parts of the forums they hated the most. the people that stayed because they had nowhere else to go

i definitely won't imply that it's a good thing that the forums were like this; it would've been better if it had just been a normal game that suffered a totally ordinary death. but there are definitely some good people that were born out of the blockland forums. i'm not sure where i would be today without it

this made me emotional 😭

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Off Topic / Re: blockland: the community that killed the game

« on: January 20, 2023, 03:41:21 PM »

agree !! also I completely forgot about cortex command that was a pretty sweet game

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Drama / Re: Plastiware was arrested for child research

« on: January 20, 2023, 04:02:47 AM »

the love offender registry says he was convicted under 18-6-403(3)(B.5), which you can read here. neither loli stuff nor nudist photos would be illegal under this law, so he is either lying about what he had, or agreed to a really stupid plea deal. personally I'm going with the first option, based on the way it was described in that news article

he straight up said it was pictures of children, why he thinks people are naive enough that he can masquerade it as "nudists" im not sure lol

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Creativity / Re: The new and improved 3D model topic!

« on: January 19, 2023, 11:20:04 PM »

took a 3d model of a tank and printed it out today



My old 3d printing thread was too old so i hope you guys don't mind if i post projects here

the texture of that freaks me tf out lol!

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Off Topic / Re: blockland: the community that killed the game

« on: January 19, 2023, 11:10:15 PM »

first of all, I was under the impression that he was around my age at the time when he posted those things, but evidently he was older that I had originally thought. plenty of people posted stupid stuff here back in the day that they probably regret ever doing, so I was trying to give him the benefit of the doubt if that were the case. it appears that isn't so, which leads me to secondly, I never defended him other than to say bringing up a 12 year old post seems irrelevant. in fact I stated the things he said could very well be interpreted as red flags and that jokingly or not it was still a forgeted up thing to say. Was there something I missed? It's so crazy ridiculous how everything I say gets misrepresented without looking at the context of my posts

its not about the context its about the intention. you only come in here to play devils advocate and then have multiple people check you. its questionable at the least