i am almost ready to cancel this whole thing to be honest. TheBlackParrot really got me into this.
I'll be honest with you, don't look up to TheBlackParrot when it comes to music. He sucks. (And I'm not saying you do look up to him right now, btw)
Really, don't look up to anyone. Feel free to admire their stuff, just don't try to be anyone else, it never happens. As long as you do what you want to do your own way, you're doing it right.
Also, all music you get digitally or physically, Sheath, has to go through production.
On a computer. It's only 'cold and heartless' because it lacks proper usage of music theory.