Wow, Aripany, my feels. Sounds like you're going through a lot. I'm only 17 (well, in a couple weeks), but I get the feeling that you're not the carefree type of guy who doesn't care about student loans and actually wants to do well, but it sounds like it's rough waters for now. Do you have a job? I know it may not be of much use, but I suggest you read the book Debt Free U; you might be able to get through college with minimal debt. And, even though we may not know each other personally, you can consider me your Internet buddy, 'kay? Even if I may not understand all of your problems first hand, I'll do my best to offer suggestions, and just listen.
Sorry to hear about you and your best friend. I know that would be tough on me; I'd probably cry (and nobody say that men don't cry; that's stupid). Have you tried contacting him recently, or scheduling a time when you could just hang out? Or did something happen between you two?
As I've gone through life, I've found that one way to relieve stress is to simply look at things in life that have potential to be stressful, and say to yourself, "I won't let that stress me out." It sounds stupid, I know. But with a bit of practice, I got it to work pretty well for me. Now, I don't have problems as big as some of yours, Aripany, but at least give it a shot, if not just for the smaller things in life. Once those are out of the way, it gives you more time to focus on the important stuff.
I hope some of what I've said has been of some help/comfort to you, if you read this.
