zenix the more you do this the more people will dismiss you and your reputation will commit Self Delete.
it sounds like attention whoring because of the way you act. you may have other motives but that doesn't change anything
its like saying i killed this guy out of self defense but the baseline is, you killed a guy. we here at the BL forums look at actions first, then decide whether or not we really want to consider motives behind it.
and that .gif is just ruining your (supposed) attempt at feeling guilt, from our point of view.
