I'm just a loving mess right now

[Jubel]

you didnt pray to our lord and savior jesus christ hard enough

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[mp7964]

how old are you just wondering

[Col. Derontchi]

how old are you just wondering

15

[Flamecannon]

Deron't feel bad, I mean we're here for you right? I think everyone has a feeling of longing, but I think knowing that there's even people you've never met in real life that like you is enough to makes things feel a bit better y'know?

[SuperFlaminninja³]

[Col. Derontchi]

Deron't feel bad, I mean we're here for you right? I think everyone has a feeling of longing, but I think knowing that there's even people you've never met in real life that like you is enough to makes things feel a bit better y'know?

Yeah I guess so, Flame. Thanks for that. It isn't really a matter of feeling rejected or anything like that, just I really got to know these people well, and I feel like I might sorta be drifting away from some of my real-life friends, so maybe this is something deeper? forget, what is happening? I'm probably just overthinking everything I think

[Flamecannon]

I've had friends gone and past on these forums and I never really see them anymore like King of Losers, Magick Mage, Jetlok, and Kira to name a few. But I'll always cherish the good times we've had, and I think it would be great if you were to get back into contact, even if it be only one time, with an old friend, online or in real life. Talk about your past experiences with them, and if they were good, then you could probably make new experiences good as well, or at the very least, you'll know that they're still on this Earth doin' stuff. I don't know for sure since suffering is relative as people say, but I think that's some good motivators to move forward. As people know I'm not the best with my words but I hope you found something to help you out.

[IkeTheGeneric]

i would suggest an aspirin it helped with my last existential crCIA

[Flamecannon]

And now no longer are you a small rainbow, but a large and happy rainbow!

[Col. Derontchi]

You're right. I still have contact with my best internet friend, which I guess is good. I've PMed a couple more just to see if they're still kicking. I already talked to my friend about playing some Hardline tomorrow, so that's good. I think I just need to go to bed and quit stressing now. Thank you guys so, so much for your help. It really means a lot to me :)

[mp7964]

15

my brother you have literally your whole life ahead of you. you live in a developed country, you have an internet connection, you have access to clean water and healthy food. you're more privileged than like 90% of the world. emotions always get better. you just have to give it time. you may feel bad now but i guarantee you'll go through worse in the future and come out of it. you're 15, live like you're 15. go outside, make friends, get drunk, smoke weed, forget a bitch. do stupid stuff that you're supposed to do as a teenager. get some stories to tell.

tl;dr you'll be fine go live your life. there's always people going through worse than you.

[Flamecannon]

I think it's kinda odd to think like that and expect to feel better, yeah it's kind of a "real-er" way to look at things but when I think like that I start to feel worse because I wish that other people had it better, but in the end isn't feeling bad feeling bad regardless if you're living in a refined mansion or a dinky tent? That's just my spin on it, if such a thought process makes people feel better then it's working for them I suppose.

[mp7964]

I think it's kinda odd to think like that and expect to feel better, yeah it's kind of a "real-er" way to look at things but when I think like that I start to feel worse because I wish that other people had it better, but in the end isn't feeling bad feeling bad regardless if you're living in a refined mansion or a dinky tent? That's just my spin on it, if such a thought process makes people feel better then it's working for them I suppose.

the whole part where i basically said people have it worse than you was to put things into perspective. he's 15 going through what is most likely just hormonal emotional issues. stuff gets better. you dont have real problems when you're a teen unless your parents just dont give a forget about you, you're homeless or you've experienced a traumatic event at some time in the near/distant past.

look at things objectively, an average 15 year old in most of the western world has it pretty good.