I can try that, but I will probably get sadder :(
Crying and sadness is a completely a-ok coping mechanism. My complete condolences, dude.
Like, don't try to make it a conversation. Kinda like, do it how one would pray to God.
BUT, you don't know he isn't going to make it. I know it sucks to think about the possibility, but look to the bright side of things. He will and would like that of you, be optimistic but don't be naive. That's important.