Off Topic > Drama
Joshua Moon and Personal Agendas
CityRPG:
--- Quote from: Visage on January 24, 2012, 03:44:36 PM ---I don't see why everyone is so eager to forgive you when you still haven't learned a damn thing about anything. You always come back trying to be the victim you can't ever admit you're a freak or a bad person. It's always "I am such a good perfect little boy but this underaged girl made me threaten her and draw research for her she is so mean to little old me it isn't fair T-T" Not to mention you side-stepped completely that you have been trying to find out where she lives, Otis wouldn't lie about something like that. I think it's time you realized you're an adult and man the forget up and stop being a spineless pervert. Until you take some responsibility you're just going to keep repeating this cycle over and over until you finally get in prison. I don't even like Stocking and I believe you that she liked all the violence and research but pretty much everyone on here is a minor like her and doesn't understand adults shouldn't and aren't allowed by law to respond to that. You're what 19 now and you still act 12 or 13 and telling the cops "I'm a little boy in a chubby man's body" isn't going to be an excuse for loveual abuse.
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Of course it was a mistake. She was the biggest mistake I can remember. Engaging her was one of the worst lapses of judgement I have made in my entire life.
Talking to her was irresponsible. She is the epitome of a teenage girl. And now I know, I finally understand fully, that the last thing I really need in my life is someone who's a turbulent, conniving inferno of hormones and problems. It doesn't even matter if she's telling the truth about playing me all along, genuine or not she is still one of the worst people I have ever met and I'm sure she would wear that like a loving medal of honor.
If you were waiting for me to learn something, Visage, this is it. This is my mistake. I would let my house burn down twelve times before I let myself come into contact with anyone like Clara ever again, and I pray I never do.
And I do understand this isn't normal. It's never been normal. I've been the odd one out for years. There's something that just doesn't click with me, I have a cognitive dissonance between reality and what I want. When I write something, I have an idea of what that statement or that post's outcome will be. When it comes out, it usually is so off the point it seems totally random and unprovoked. It's like throwing a ball without understanding gravity.
I've always had that, though. In Elementary, even, I remember writing apology notes to other students with like, threats tied at the end. I was sent up to the principals' office so many times for saying egregiously offensive things and they always tried to explain to me how other people perceive what's being said. It never clicked; it never has.
Something has always been knocked loose inside of me, and I'm seriously running out of time to fix it. I don't think this will have any serious implications, but the next forget up will.
Nickelob Ultra:
In the last few pages we see yet again the stage of playing the victim card. This is after, of course, multiple accounts from multiple people point to Iban being a psychologically-broken wanna-be murderer.
--- Quote from: CityRPG on January 24, 2012, 12:41:06 PM ---[u|rl=http://i.imgur.com/00000.jpg]This is page 2[/u|rl] of the commission. The big black gap is a panel where the artist drew her masturbating while the girl she swallowed is being incinerated by gastric juices. (Notice the last panel. Look like someone you know?)
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Oh hey, look. Tits.
CityRPG:
How can you say I've not been victimized, lol. Look at the first post. I trusted her and that trust was not misplaced.
The argument, however, centers around if I deserve it. The Afterschool Special clique (e.g. you) is going to beat me with sticks, and then those without a personal vendetta against me will kinda of see that yeah, this isn't 100% self-inflicted.
I've never liked Visage, or Badspot, or Ephialtes. Yet I respect what they say as if it's almost parental. It's extremely hard to describe my feelings towards them.
On that note, I emailed Badspot about the comic mess-up before anyone could even report it. I was very haphazard about cropping it and I guess I just didn't notice. I have faith in his judgement, so if I get banned, again, I guess that's what's fair.
CityRPG:
--- Quote from: CityRPG on January 24, 2012, 04:32:33 PM ---was not misplaced.
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>.>;
Nickelob Ultra:
--- Quote from: CityRPG on January 24, 2012, 04:32:33 PM ---How can you say I've not been victimized, lol. Look at the first post. I trusted her and that trust was not misplaced.
The argument, however, centers around if I deserve it. The Afterschool Special clique (e.g. you) is going to beat me with sticks, and then those without a personal vendetta against me will kinda of see that yeah, this isn't 100% self-inflicted.
I've never liked Visage, or Badspot, or Ephialtes. Yet I respect what they say as if it's almost parental. It's extremely hard to describe my feelings towards them.
On that note, I emailed Badspot about the comic mess-up before anyone could even report it. I was very haphazard about cropping it and I guess I just didn't notice. I have faith in his judgement, so if I get banned, again, I guess that's what's fair.
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The trust was likely misplaced after she kept trying to restore contact with you despite you trying to shove her off.
This is what girls tend to do when they still want to talk to people. She, like most girls probably, thought you might go telling people secrets of hers or anything. Therefore to prevent this they'll still want to keep any good ties with you.
Then again you did outright go on about how you wanted to murder her father and then mutilate her genitals, so that probably played a part in the thread's creation.