Author Topic: The vent.  (Read 2396 times)

I've always been a pretty social kid, always been part of the "cool kid" group, always tried to be a nice guy. I never sunk to the "I'm better then you so I'm going to remind you of it everyday level". I figure if everyone has problems, it aint really worth my time to add to them. As a kid I went through some heavy stuff, and the first time around, I had the same feelings most of you guys did, but the second time around I realized that those feelings are a bunch of bullstuff and aren't worth my, or anyone else's time.

I'm a sophomore in highschool now, just moved here this year, already made my way up the top of the social ladder. And my move here has changed a lot in me. I make it my goal to try to enjoy all the other people around me, I don't just hang around one social clique, I talk to freshman and upper class men. I realize what Kilser is feeling, your only young once, a lot of mistakes can be made, and life throws stuff at you and you can't always make the catch y'know. You just gotta pick yourself up and get back in the game. If you aren't going to try to live your life to improve yourself, at least try and improve someone else's, we could all use a little help son, even if we don't want to say it.

I've always been different, I've always been shy. When I was born my dad wanted and expected some star high school sports player. Instead he got a nerd who doesn't have many friends. At school people always act like they like me but I later find out they talk badly of me behind my back and made fun of me if I ever talked to them about a problem I was having. I have depression and suicidal thoughts, the only place I feel like I'm someone is on the Internet. I escape from life through video games and making music. I really don't think it's ever going to get better but I don't end it because of my Internet friends and music. So Aware, Jacksaunt, Cucumber, Sol, and the rest of BL forums, if you ever read this, you are one of the few reasons why I won't end it all <3

Chills, don't ever let life get you down. Always will the Internet be there for you, just don't become dependant.