i h8 relationships
not just h8
h9 relationships
maybe even h10
small detail: I am depressed. Or atleast was. I hated myself in every way possible. I had the lowest self esteem ever.
This just happened over the summer from freshman to sophmore year, like a month or two. Friend a (named brett for this story's sake) introduced me to a girl (Nicole for this story's sake) two years ago, but near the end of last school year we started talking again. I liked her alot, and so i tried taking her on a date. Needless to say it ended up being very awkward. Only because she was so out of it, I was putting all of my money into taking her to the movies and it just ended up being that she liked some other guy and I was just a pastime for her.
So i ditched her for the time being, until she dated the guy she liked (named forgetface for this story) and forgetface cheated on her. She came crying to me saying that she hated him. And from there we started talking and going out again and we ended up talking again. Our relationship during the summer was pretty good, staying up late as forget texting and stuff. My depression completely dissapeared. One day forgetface tries talking to Nicole while we were dating. Eventually she came to me and broke up with me. She told me I was a great guy and she would love to go out with me again and will "always love you dearly with all of my heart, its just that I'm having issues with my dad not paying child support and our relationship is adding a little stress." Still, after I kept texting her daily and we still talked because im not one to completely ignore her and make it weird.
Until days later I realized she stopped showing up to lunch (we sat at the same table with a group of mutual friends) and eventually while cutting class on the roof of a portable I saw her making out with forgetface. This was a week after our relationship ended, and breaking up on the grounds of "not being ready for a relationship" pissed me off. I ended up texting her confronting her and she told me "we weren't working out stuff happens" and im like "so you go for forgetface, who already cheated on you who you just cried about not too long ago ok fuk u den"
i was done.
the end.
