You've clearly never talked to a depressed person. Being depressed is not feeling sad constantly. It's a lack of feeling happy and for most people a numbness of most emotion.
Depression requires that the person has feelings of sadness, loss, or frustration. The OP has said several times that he doesn't really feel emotions. If depression were the problem, the OP would have most definitely mentioned being down in the dumps or being frustrated. He's more so just apathetic towards everything, on top of being aggressive and lacking the ability of being social.There's a big difference between feeling sad and not feeling at all.
Signs & Symptoms"It was really hard to get out of bed in the morning. I just wanted to hide under the covers and not talk to anyone. I didn't feel much like eating and I lost a lot of weight. Nothing seemed fun anymore. I was tired all the time, and I wasn't sleeping well at night. But I knew I had to keep going because I've got kids and a job. It just felt so impossible, like nothing was going to change or get better."People with depressive illnesses do not all experience the same symptoms. The severity, frequency, and duration of symptoms vary depending on the individual and his or her particular illness.Signs and symptoms include:Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" feelingsFeelings of hopelessness or pessimismFeelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessnessIrritability, restlessnessLoss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including loveFatigue and decreased energyDifficulty concentrating, remembering details, and making decisionsInsomnia, early-morning wakefulness, or excessive sleepingOvereating, or appetite lossThoughts of Self Delete, Self Delete attemptsAches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment.
Do you feel anything when doing something like riding a roller coaster, or anything exciting that would cause adrenaline? fear, but never adrenalineA disorder can only be diagnosed if the person with it feels that it is causing them suffering and if it's hindering their ability to be productive.Do you sometimes act impulsive? This means that you do things without thinking about them, or you don't plan ahead. Not caring about your future can be a failure to plan ahead. it depends on the thingDo you avoid conversations? i don't really AVOID them but i fear itDo you go against the norm often? not sureDo you lie to people or deceive people for your own benefit? for some people to like me, yeah.Have you gotten into fights or felt as though you wanted to fight someone? i'm pretty much passive, i want to beat the stuff out of some people, but i couldn't hurt anyone.Do you find yourself not really caring about what happens to people? depends on what it isDo you repeatedly fail to follow orders or complete school work? yes, very muchDo you think you have a problem, and if so, do you think it's harming you in any way? yeah, i realize that i need high school so i can get into a good college, but i just don't feel like i give a stuff about it