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That sounds really horrible and upsetting to have gone through all that. I'm really sorry for you that it happened.
I really am glad that there isn't such a gun-focussed culture here in the UK, because I know that those similar sort of over-reactions would happen a lot more here too.
And God knows I'd have been in trouble a billion times for drawing pictures of guns (little stick-figure ones), pretending my hands were guns, or just anything else really. And I'm sure all my friends would've too.
I don't have any pressing regrets. Nothing that I think would've majorly changed how or where I am today.
I suppose I wish I was nicer to my friends. I don't really know if I was just trying to impress people or not, or if I thought I was just too cool, but I could be very horrible to my friends at times. Getting into fights with them, calling them names, saying some really hurtful things, sometimes damaging or mis-treating their property (nothing over the top here, like I wasn't a thug. But I know I got out of control on more than one occassion and didn't think about what I was doing, and in doing so did something rash, which ended up with a friend losing their ball or whatever. And this one time I threw my friends bag into a tree (a very tall tree) for no reason whatsoever).
So, yeah, I wish I had been much less of a richard than I was.
I also wish I put more effort into things.
I hope I don't come off as too roostery or egotistical in saying this, but I know that I'm brainy.
And I was acutely aware that I was smarter than a lot of my classmates.
And I kind of just got used to that and took it for granted.
So, I never really put much effort in to learning.
And it really came around to bite me in the arse.
I forgeted up my A Levels in college (high shool), and I had to take an extra year.
And I know I have not put in the effort I should have for this first year of university. Like no where near what I should have.
And I think it all comes down to me being really lazy. Like at this moment in time I'm procrastinating from finishing a 1.5k word essay that is due in tomorrow, which I'm now struggling with because I'm having difficulty with the resources I need to complete it, and I didn't start work on it until just days before it was due in, despite having access to it for over 2 months.
So, there you go. I don't really know when I'll learn.
