your parents might be abusive, but that is not entirely necessary for Self Delete. infact, its even in the op you wrote. you dont need to kill yourself, im sort of in your shoes too, with my only friend being a girl i have a crush on but cant tell her that. it gets really aggervating to the point that i consider it too, but i dont because i know that i could still have a chance and that the pain is only for a short time. you could also just call the police on your dad too because child abuse is violation of the US Department of Law. you could have all that abusive crap out of your life with a simple 911 call.
if ive offended, forgive me, i'm trying to help
edit: i seem to have forgotten in my incredibly small paragraph, to include that my parents are almost always fighting, and my brother is always fighting me over stupid crap, but its only temporary. even though its not the same as divorce, i kinda have the same experience because it involves major conflict and increased arguments. almost everyday, my parents are yelling at each other. i'd suggest verging away from your dad for a long time, he'll need you someday, and he probably knows it darn well.
