I hate existence

[Marios]

Don't let your suicidal thoughts get into you. Doctors have a pretty good reason why they refuse to give you a shot - they heal, they don't kill. If anything is worse than existing, it's not existing.

If you try, you will find something in life you're good at, no matter the conditions. If there is nothing you can do to end your misery without ending your life, all you can do is keep going. That's what I've been doing for grade school and junior high school, which in here is 9 years in total (6+3 respectively.)

As can be expected for Self Delete prevention, here are two quotes from famous people about Self Delete (Taken from TV Tropes because any other source was somehow difficult to find quotes not by unknown and not just vaguely related to Self Delete)

I thought about putting an end to my life, but I stayed my hand, knowing that I still had works to compose. ~Ludwig van Beethoven (Composer that literally everyone knows)

When you're going through Hell... Keep going! ~Winston Churchill (British Prime Minister and sometimes writer liked by many)

And a list of Self Delete crCIA lines.

And don't worry about the reaction of the BLF - that's what they do because they believe every suicidal post is attention whoring.

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[Bisjac]

You should write for korn

[C-Zech Chrome Ind.]

To-do lists and schedules are wonderful things to help organize your days, weeks, months and years.  Keeping a few volumes of journals are great for logging your experiences as well.
 
I think you've just been struck by a spot of boredom.

[Whackin]

I sincerely think you should contact a therapist before you contact the forums

[espio100]

i've been there
it gets better

[Willymcmilly]

... I just forgetin' hate this world. And the human worms feasting on its corpus. My whole life is just cold, bitter hatred. And I always wanted to die violently. This is the time of vengeance and no life is worth saving. And I will put in the grave as many as I can. It's time for me to kill. And it's time for me to die. My genocide crusade begins here.

[NotBomberguy]

-edgy-

the edge just sliced my screen in half
also contacting the BLF first isn't exactly the best idea

[Biostorm]

if you're worried about existance remember that nothing really exists except for """you"""

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remember that existence is just your brain simulating signals it receives, everything you see/hear/smell/touch is just signals your brain is receiving and then interpreting into stimulation

this is extremely oversimplified, but remember that existence is just what your brain perceives. if you die everything will cease to exist, because reality is just a simulation we make in our heads.

or i'm just loving handicapped, don't kill yourself OP

[The Resonte!]

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remember that existence is just your brain simulating signals it receives, everything you see/hear/smell/touch is just signals your brain is receiving and then interpreting into stimulation

this is extremely oversimplified, but remember that existence is just what your brain perceives. if you die everything will cease to exist, because reality is just a simulation we make in our heads.

or i'm just loving handicapped, don't kill yourself OP

but what if even that is an illusion... the """world""" is what """told""" you about this information, so it could easily be """false""".

[Insert Name Here²]

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remember that existence is just your brain simulating signals it receives, everything you see/hear/smell/touch is just signals your brain is receiving and then interpreting into stimulation

this is extremely oversimplified, but remember that existence is just what your brain perceives. if you die everything will cease to exist, because reality is just a simulation we make in our heads.

or i'm just loving handicapped, don't kill yourself OP

tbh if you're depressed already or suicidal, saying this stuff is the worst thing you can say because it just gives them a concrete reason to kill themselves or continue being sad

[ReddBoi]

u ok op

[Monstercat]

Don't let your suicidal thoughts get into you. Doctors have a pretty good reason why they refuse to give you a shot - they heal, they don't kill. If anything is worse than existing, it's not existing.

If you try, you will find something in life you're good at, no matter the conditions. If there is nothing you can do to end your misery without ending your life, all you can do is keep going. That's what I've been doing for grade school and junior high school, which in here is 9 years in total (6+3 respectively.)

As can be expected for Self Delete prevention, here are two quotes from famous people about Self Delete (Taken from TV Tropes because any other source was somehow difficult to find quotes not by unknown and not just vaguely related to Self Delete)

I thought about putting an end to my life, but I stayed my hand, knowing that I still had works to compose. ~Ludwig van Beethoven (Composer that literally everyone knows)

When you're going through Hell... Keep going! ~Winston Churchill (British Prime Minister and sometimes writer liked by many)

And a list of Self Delete crCIA lines.

And don't worry about the reaction of the BLF - that's what they do because they believe every suicidal post is attention whoring.

I'm a classical piano player, so that Beethoven quote means a lot to me. I don't know how I've never heard it -- although I do know Beethoven was extremely depressed towards the last years of his life. Can you imagine being a classical composer who's losing his hearing, bit by bit? What a loving tragic existence. He is one of my favorite composers, next to Chopin, Debussy, and Rachmaninoff.

[IkeTheGeneric]

It's easy to remove context from everything you do to make it seem meaningless. It's not all fruitless, there is a means to an end, and there are definitely accomplishments in life that are worth working for.

You're going to die someday, maybe sooner than later. Ultimately any action you do will be swallowed by time. There is value in leading a better life than wasting away in self-pity. It's up to you to decide if you owe it to yourself to keep on moving forward.

[Rally]

There is no easy way to commit Self Delete because you have to endure extreme hardships to get to that point in the first place

[suddz attakz]

Depending on your views in religion, you have one life, and after that you can go one of many ways. But, while you're down here, I think you would really like trying your best to enjoy it while you can. I do believe you'll find happiness in what you love! :)

If you're a classical pianist, I'm sure you can play lovely tunes. I've always loved Die Walküre, Peer Gynt, and the likes by Mozart. Just find the right melody, and keep following it, yeah? Best of wishes, Monstercat.