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I also alternate between robotic/clinical and very nervous and meek when in these states.
I feel you in the snipped part. It happens to me often enough to make me hate myself a bit more, but the unsnipped part is just how I've always spoke, except just add extremely sarcastic and richardish as a third option.
I unironically like vaporwave. I also enjoyed what I watched of My Little Pony but wouldn't say I'm a brony or whatever.
Pretty much
this.
I'm actually a bit scared of how I think of things some times. Often my first thought when encountering a people related problem is stabbing someone I don't like and running away, fantasizing about that thought for a few moments, before discarding it and actually working on the problem. Another confession is that I actually do feel emotions, but most people that see me and talk to me think I'm some sort of emotionless robot, and accuse me of having no empathy or sympathy when I just don't show any emotion. I loving feel everything, maybe not as intensely as someone in hollywood, but holy stuff that's not reason enough to accuse me of being willing to commit genocide.
Bit of a tangent there. Another confession is that I
think I might be a bit of a sadomasochist, but that might just be me being silly. Not in the loveual way, either, just finding fun in hurting others and being hurt. But that could also just be part of being human.
Oh yeah, another confession. I loving HATE ANYONE THAT SAYS THEY HAVE OCD WHEN THEY JUST FEEL LIKE MAKING SOMETHING NEAT ON OCCASION. I'm going to break out a poem from the great /u/Poem_for_your_sprog from Reddit. I feel like reciting this poem whenever someone says "oh god OCD, gotta make these cards straight"
'I have to sort my books!' she cried,
With self-indulgent glee;
With senseless, narcissistic pride:
'I'm just so
OCD!'
'How random, guys!' I smiled and said,
Then left without a peep -
And washed my hands until they bled,
And cried myself to sleep.This also goes to anyone that calls themselves a sociopath or insane or whatever the forget other completely loving horrible mental disorder is "cool" to pretend to have at the time. Hell, I'm pretty sure I've told one guy off here for this exact purpose.
Another confession, I don't know why I feel like confessing so much. Forgive me my holy sun, for I have sinned.