Psilocybin, meditation, hypnotherapy, to detach from the Ego to find unconditional love in your environment and lower your sense of self and experience the world in its entirety. Self Delete or heroin overdose is also a valid option but not guarenteed to solve your woes post-mortem.
Oh, also, alcohol and xanax is great until you understand you're putting on make up over your self-abused subconscious.
I am just now recovering from crippling social anxiety and loss of validation after being beaten up so much in elementry school for having Autism, it got routine to drink enough Vodka to cry myself to sleep, blasting Tool and burning myself to be able to remind myself what it means to feel.
Get better, buddy.
