I'm a big baby general

[Soukuw]

Life is pretty cool, we are all lucky to experience it, there are the ups and downs but we are still all alive and even is in the worst thick of it we still are human and alive. I don't know what I'm going on about here but I'm boozed and listening to an album that is awesome, it's moments like these I feel like I honestly have something to say that someone might give a stuff about, really though I'm going to wake up and find this wall of unfortunate text and beat on myself for being so stupid.

Anyways: Life is sort of "hard" for me right now, I just turned 17 on the 15th and I had a shock, I don't know what to do, seriously, in one year I can do "anything" I'm finally free but with that my confidence breaks down and I realize that I like listening to people to people and doing what they say, I'm the submissive type in special interest and life itself and this makes it hard for me to decide how I should proceed.

I'm not ready for all of this, it's so sudden and I'm starting to panic, some nights I cry myself to sleep realize how much stuff is changing. I have no life outside of my computer and this does not fare well for my future.

I understand this is all simple, get a job, move out of my parents house, find a girlfriend and live life but it all seems so simple and pointless it really forgets me over every time I realize whatever I do doesn't matter in anyway it will ALL be forgotten when I die.

I feel as if I'm being eaten from the inside out.

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[Soukuw]

If you seek a radical change, have you ever considered abolishing everything minor or non-important permanently so that you can focus on only what is important?

I don't seek huge change I loath it. I just want to be left alone with my hobbies but I'm being thrown into a world I know much about but don't want to be apart of, I'd rather observe it from the sidelines. (The internet)

Edit: To clarify I understand this seems like something a basement dweller would say but I honestly hate the world and almost everyone who resides on it.

Edit2: Which is a stupid thing to say because that's stereotyping everyone.

[Tømpson]

I don't seek huge change I loath it. I just want to be left alone with my hobbies but I'm being thrown into a world I know much about but don't want to be apart of, I'd rather observe it from the sidelines. (The internet)

Get a job at starbucks, get a small apartment and a computer, and live out the rest of your days in solitude.

Alternately: Purchase a sailboat, rent a marina spot, get a computer, and do odd jobs for the rest of your life.

[.:FancyPants:.]

i've thought about this and have started to realize how stressful it will end up being, but i'm only 14.

i can't really help here, though keep in mind that following in the footsteps how other people live isn't a terrible thing, if you're really stuck in moving forward then i suppose the thing to do is learn from everyone around you.

I realize whatever I do doesn't matter in anyway it will ALL be forgotten when I die.

that is deep.

[BuildaBox]

I don't seek huge change I loath it. I just want to be left alone with my hobbies but I'm being thrown into a world I know much about but don't want to be apart of, I'd rather observe it from the sidelines. (The internet)

I'm only 15 so I don't know much about how jobs and careers work, but I'm sure that once you get through the really hectic events of finding a job, house, partner, and stuff then it will get so much simpler. And considering a job is just following your boss's orders then it'll be great.

And I feel the same way with some of the things that you're saying. I would much rather just sit back and watch the world evolve than actually be a part of it. That's actually probably the reason why I'm very unmotivated in many things I do, don't like vacations that much, and don't do much of anything except go to school and then when I get home play a bunch of Left 4 Dead. I'm also a very shy and quiet kid.

Hope everything turns out okay for you and you get yourself settled down.

[devildogelite]

I don't seek huge change I loath it. I just want to be left alone with my hobbies but I'm being thrown into a world I know much about but don't want to be apart of, I'd rather observe it from the sidelines. (The internet)

Edit: To clarify I understand this seems like something a basement dweller would say but I honestly hate the world and almost everyone who resides on it.

I wrote a somewhat inspirational post, but this changes everything I was going to say. That's a terrible attitude that reeks of teen angst. It is exactly what a basement dweller would say, you pretty much are a basement dweller. Just because you think you're above everybody doesn't mean you are.

If you want to be happy you need to stop thinking like this.

that is deep.

Not really. Very few people are actually remembered by many after death. I don't understand people care if they're remembered by tons of people after death. It doesn't matter, do what makes you happy.

[Soukuw]

I wrote a somewhat inspirational post, but this changes everything I was going to say. That's a terrible attitude that reeks of teen angst. It is exactly what a basement dweller would say, you pretty much are a basement dweller. Just because you think you're above everybody doesn't mean you are.

If you want to be happy you need to stop thinking like this.

Not really. Very few people are actually remembered by many after death. I don't understand people care if they're remembered by tons of people after death. It doesn't matter, do what makes you happy.

I also realize this (Sadly, I'd much rather be oblivious to my stupid impossible dreams and just seek them out blindly) it's a stupid and lazy way of going in to life, pretty much a "I want to do nothing but what I like", but honestly I do want that, but who doesn't?

I think deep down I'm a lazy forget who doesn't want to work and that's why I'm panicking, at least my work ethic is picking up.

Welp time will tell I guess. :(

[Flamecannon]

Not really. Very few people are actually remembered by many after death. I don't understand people care if they're remembered by tons of people after death. It doesn't matter, do what makes you happy.

There's always the thing that some people strive to be remembered and that's what makes them happy. but i guess that's echoing what you said anyway

[Harm94]

I'm going to college and life hasn't changed much for me. I am almost twenty anyway and my hair is loosing color, but that just makes me look cooler.