A.)Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, a mental illness resulting in persistant illogical fears and ideas, and often, particular habits created and followed out so as to avoid the fears and anxiety they cause.
B.) Why I suffer.
A.) In the sixth grade, I was so afraid of choking on food that I would only eat soup or mashed potatoes. I weighed 60 lbs, and almost died before I slowly was brought onto solid foods again.
B.) I'm afraid of eveything now. Its stupid, but I can't stop it. I'm afraid of people, yet I love them. I want love, but I'm too cowardly to look for it. Instead I get caught up in the deluded fantasies in my head and wait for the world to go away.