Ohmy. Certain wounds can never be healed, as the scar will always show. Even so, I'm sure she'd want you to move o in your life. It was her time to die, and its your time to live. Use your time here wisely. I hope the best for you and your family. :)
Anywhom, my Grandfather on my Mother's side died before I was born, after he had lived with a stroke for 8 years (7 and 3/4 years longer then expected, that stubborn Italian. :P). My Grandmother died when I was 2, the poor women. Though their story how they died are pretty interesting. My Grandmother on my father's side died before I was born, as did her second and third husband, and apparently, my father's father is still alive, but I doubt I'll ever meet him considering I haven't talked to my own father for over 4 months now.
I've become off-track. o:
Well, I wish for the best of you and your family, I hope that you can make light of this, and eventually move on, though never forget. Best Blessings, friend. <3