Can you describe what it's like? I haven't really talked to anyone with schizophrenia. Maybe you have another personality that is the exact opposite of you that hates everything instead of caring, heh.
Actually, you aren't far from right. I have a minor-case, sort of.
It is a bit like I have 3 or 4 levels of thought. When I speak, my mind thinks what I'm saying. But at the same time, I'm thinking totally different things. Like, if I where to say "I believe in God", one of my thoughts would confirm it, the other would deny. Normally the denier would bash the statement, while the part that confirmed would praise it. Sometimes, when it is rather quiet, they just fight and clash in my mind. I really can't control it.
Though, I have found a way to calm them and bring them to a close, which is why I do sing so much. When I sing, it's like the thoughts fade away.
Other times, I just see strange things. I'm not completely sure if that has to do with the schizophrenia, though I believe it does.
It's difficult, yes, but also another reason why I don't like to look through windows. Sometimes people have a whole other world we don't even know about.
