Yep. Never thought it was anything more than just being afraid of random stuff when I was younger, but it turns out it is not normal for a fifteen year old to have to check his room for monsters every time he walks into it. It also explains why I can never trust anyone I know with personal things and secrets, and why I seem to be on the verge of insanity.
There's a problem though. Apparently, it is good to have an outlet for any emotions or fears I have, as it helps with calming the mind and building trust. I cannot trust my own mother with secrets, and I know I cannot just explain that I have paranoia. When I try to tell my mother or father about anything that may be wrong with me, it is usually three days before they will believe me, and during that time they will ridicule me. :(
I looked up methods of curing paranoia, and it is strongly suggested that I consult a psychiatrist about my paranoia to help locate the source of my paranoia and to help with getting over it. I do not want to have to ask my parents to take me to one, I am afraid of the ridicule I will receive from that. Thinking about the source of my paranoia, it may have been a mixture of my parents not seeming to care about my problems, and my brother constantly trying to make me watch horror movies when I was four years old.
Any suggestions on what to do?
