Girl I know had a really rough break up this last winter, not as severe, but she felt the same connection. Like there was really love and not some stuffty teen relationship between them. She moved on though, so it may not have been true, but I hope you do move on like her. If it was real, it's best to forget it because it will just keep stirring up the pain. Meaning I can only hope for the best for you, try to take a walk or something when you start feeling like stuff. Just try to think about other things, I know it's hard.