I don't usually talk about my feelings with you guys, and I doubt you want to hear about them, but recently I've been having little episodes of feeling really sad
not quite "I'm going to kill myself" sad, but I still feel really depressed about everything
it's happened four times since about a week before Christmas; the first time seemed to be the worst, up until today, where it happened to a greater extent than before
all four times it only lasted about fifteen minutes, and only even that long once, the first time
I don't know what causes it, and that is my major concern. I can't ever find a reason for why I feel so sad, I just am. sometimes it's directed at different things, such as school, family, or such. today for example, I was feeling this way about things going on in the forum. thoughts went through my head such as how you guys probably hate me because I don't contribute anything at all. which may be true for some of you, but that's not the point.
like I said, it wouldn't be a problem to me if I knew what caused it. there's nothing I've been angry or sad about recently. I used to think it may have been because I felt lonely, but the past two times I found out that that isn't the reason at all.
maybe telling you guys will get some pressure off my chest and just completely fix the problem, who knows?
I just want to hear what any of you think I guess
