Such are the ramblings of a madman.
Tell me, do you ACTUALLY believe yourself to be someone respectable?
If so, you must not remember the horrors inflicted upon society by your actions, hmm?
Or perhaps you simply do not believe it to be wrong of yourself to do such things.
if so, then I am fairly certain there is nothing to help you now.
Go on, live the rest of your miserable, twisted life.