i have depression. i'm going to try meditating

[KadeBL_ID12958]

Hey guys. i have depression, go to a therapist etc. no meds, i don't want my mind to be controlled by a medicine. anyways, i am fine when i'm talking to people, but when i'm isolated my mind gets cluttered with annoying horrible thoughts. i did some searching, and meditating seems to be a way to clear my mind of these things.

does/has anyone on this forum know how to meditate/ever done it? have any tips?
also i can tell you about those thoughts if you ask. that's just not the main idea of the thread so i didn't go into detail.

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[Lamebro1]

This has happened to me before, please tell us what your thoughts are (you can PM me if you are not comfortable with telling everyone)

[QuantumEagle]

Maybe it'll just be easier to get some internet friends' Skype names and talk to them often.

[Flamecannon]

Remove impulses
Sit in a quiet area
Criss cross applesauce
Breathe in and out
Close eyes
Do not make a noise or move
Focus upon your mental image of Nirvana

[Sami2ss]

i always have thoughts like that, i don't think it's anything irregular, humans are meant to think and ponder, and so things like if you died or if you killed someone enter your mind, it's nothing to be worried about unless you think it's a sign that you should do it.

[bµbbler]

I always have had this since last christmas.
I saw people getting killed in a .gif file and ever since then i've been anxious 24/7

[KadeBL_ID12958]

This has happened to me before, please tell us what your thoughts are (you can PM me if you are not comfortable with telling everyone)

It's alright, i'll post it here.

so basically it's kind of a combination of things. one of them feels like low self esteem, because sometimes i'll be in a really pissy mood and i'll get a headache and constantly hear my mind insult me over and over again. not pretty. then either before bed or any time when nobody is home, i get these thoughts about what it'd be like to be dead. i can't control them, and sometimes i start panicking when i think too much. i seem to take insults a little too personally, or even jokes. also when i'm isolated in my room i get a combination of both combined with a sort of helpless feeling.

i always have thoughts like that, i don't think it's anything irregular, humans are meant to think and ponder, and so things like if you died or if you killed someone enter your mind, it's nothing to be worried about unless you think it's a sign that you should do it.

not if it causes you to panic.

i used to have these days where i'd just start crying for no reason. and i wouldn't just cry, i'd bawl. which that no longer happens. i mentioned my "death thoughts" to my mom and she said i used to complain about being scared of death and dying when i was younger.

[Lamebro1]

It's alright, i'll post it here.

so basically it's kind of a combination of things. one of them feels like low self esteem, because sometimes i'll be in a really pissy mood and i'll get a headache and constantly hear my mind insult me over and over again. not pretty. then either before bed or any time when nobody is home, i get these thoughts about what it'd be like to be dead. i can't control them, and sometimes i start panicking when i think too much. i seem to take insults a little too personally, or even jokes. also when i'm isolated in my room i get a combination of both combined with a sort of helpless feeling.

If you have nice parents contact them or go to a doctor.
I know you don't want meds but trust me, you need them as the exact same thing happened to me earlier this year.

[Zloff]

any problems in life or with yourself? Or is the cause unknown? If it is just random and you don't know why it's happening take some meds. If not, don't, because ignoring problems through medication gets you nowhere

[Beachbum]

When I was a bit younger I dealt with terrible depression. I abused the hell out of the pills do they stopped giving them to me. A way I got through it was meditating, I recommend doing it at night in your yard. Just lay down, look at the stars, and go into your own world. Think positive thoughts. Think about how you made that sweet build on BL, think about that sweet ass you saw while walking up the stairs tk class. Think about the breakdown of your favorite song. Anything tk get your mind off of the fact that you're terribly sad. And when your mind starts to wander to the bad places, think about the people you love and how much they mean to you and how sad theyd be if you were gone. And while your depression might prevent you from thinking you have those people, you do. Whether it e your family, friends or your dog, someone loves you exactly for who you are :D

This has been a PSA by beachy

[KadeBL_ID12958]

any problems in life or with yourself? Or is the cause unknown? If it is just random and you don't know why it's happening take some meds. If not, don't, because ignoring problems through medication gets you nowhere

i at first thought it was the death of my grandpa. and grandma. and my other one. but i haven't had any grandparent related thoughts. so i truly don't know the cause. and i really don't want to take meds tho. i got a couple of friends who used to be on them. they're different. not like they used to be. and i don't mean happier.

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now that you mention it, my front or back yard would be a great idea. i have people who drive motorcycles back and forth through the cul de sac. maybe the backyard would be better. the only thing i'm worried about is the amount of beetles and mosquitos and stuff here in texas. i don't wanna wake up to be covered in roaches and spiders


EDIT Also; my mind also tries to influence me to do things. example: a couple days back i distinctly remembering my mind saying "your hair is stupid. cut it. now." and i actually started thinking about it, and started texting my parents about it and stuff. although, it's been replaced with a better alternative, i looked through everything i can do with my hair and chose to get some healthy, natural dreadlocks. (not neglect) and i haven't gone back on the decision, either. it confuses me a bit but i like the fact that i'm not backing down for once.

[Bisjac]

one of the main symptoms of depression is denial that you even have depression.

acknowledging your problem means you have the willpower to overcome it.

pansy. quit being a girl controlled by pointless emotions.

[Beachbum]

i at first thought it was the death of my grandpa. and grandma. and my other one. but i haven't had any grandparent related thoughts. so i truly don't know the cause. and i really don't want to take meds tho. i got a couple of friends who used to be on them. they're different. not like they used to be. and i don't mean happier.
now that you mention it, my front or back yard would be a great idea. i have people who drive motorcycles back and forth through the cul de sac. maybe the backyard would be better. the only thing i'm worried about is the amount of beetles and mosquitos and stuff here in texas. i don't wanna wake up to be covered in roaches and spiders

Yeah, I lived in Cali at the time I was dealing with it. But whenever I come out the burbs out here, I lay out on my moms roof and meditate lookin at the stars. Take a lawn chair / hammock out and use that to keep the creepy crawlies off of you, and take a big zapper or some bug spray against Mosquitos.

[Bisjac]

lists reasons why he is depressed

see it dosnt matter why. accepting or controlling whatever 1 thing it may be isnt the solution.

simply control yourself instead

[KadeBL_ID12958]

one of the main symptoms of depression is denial that you even have depression.
acknowledging your problem means you have the willpower to overcome it.
pansy. quit being a girl controlled by pointless emotions.

You know what, i do have the willpower to take steps to overcome it. meditation is going to be my method. now stop being an starfish.