I have to care about myself enough to bother. sense no one cares about me, why should i? And you have no idea how long i have looked into depression, researched it, studied it, did a essay on it. Its always an event in your brain, this is true, but there are still 2 types: Clinical, which is the kind your diagnosed with. Clinical depression is when you have no choice, it just happened. There was an issue in your brain that caused a certain horomone to release, causing depression. Then there is emotional, also caused by a DIFFERENT horomone in the brain, activated by actions in daily life that stress or deprive someone of happy thoughts. in other words, being emotionaly depressed is a little worse then clinical, because clinical is easier treated. Thearepy is good, but only if you can pinpoint the cause of depression. i have to many different causes, I would be in there for a few years to figure out, and treat every cause.
And i am talking to a forum filled mostly of kids because i have already tried talking to friends. My parents would tell me i dont know what it is and tell me not to worry about it.