it gets really bad when i start thinking about killing people, i'll talk aloud how i'd do it.
my parents once over heard me talking to myself about how i'd kill my brother. that was very awkward...
i remember exactly how i thought it through:
me and him would be practicing shooting guns, and while he'd be reloading i'd just shoot him. right there. cause i mean my parents think were practicing so they're bound to expect gun shots. i'd be freaking out and trying to think, so i'd just walk back to the house (cause we practice in a pasture, the grass is tall as hell, no one would see his body) i'd imagine my parents to say something like "oh wheres your brother?" and i'd try to say in my most calm voice, "oh hes still just shooting.." then it would be a waiting game till they found his body, cause i'd be too shooken up to do anything about it.
or how i'd kill my dad, or my my mother.. i dont really know how i'd kill them yet, i just know the idea has sprung up in my head a few times.