So you don't want to go to a therapist, and you don't want to meet people and you're also telling us the area you live in doesn't have anyone you can talk to.
Have you thought about holding a conversation with your mother, letting her know how you feel about this and whatnot?
i have
she just tells me i either need to go to a therapist, go to school, or FIND SOMETHING ELSE THAT INVOLVES INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE, I.E A CLUB, A SIMPLE CLASS, ETC.
the above is capslocked because i want to emphasize that all i need is a suggestion of something i can do that involves interaction with human beings, but not very much, just something easy