You need a girlfriend... or a boy good friend, someone to knock some sense into you, or help you out.
Instead, you rant about it online, which solves nothing, but proving to everyone that you are a total nut case.
Ever tried talking to you mother? Probably think that's worse than talking to a teacher, but either that, or you'll wish you did 3 days after the fact that she's 6 feet under, and you're 6 inches deeper.