so i don't know what to do here, its sort of complicated..
well i've known this girl for like 4 years, we met through the surf team at my middle school. we have this really weird relationship where we're like best friends but do stuff that normal best friends dont usually do like cuddle. the problem is, i've really liked her for about 2 years now but i haven't told her. last year, she went away to boarding school, and she's coming back this weekend. i haven't seen her in 3 months. i'm not sure what to do, i'm afraid if i tell her how i feel we won't be friends anymore.
1 more problem: i hooked up with her friend the last time she was here, but i couldn't tell if she was mad or not. (dumb mistake) sometimes she says i'm hers and stuff, but i can't tell if she's joking.
side note: im not black