Stop thinking about your feelings so much. There is a bit of well accepted ignorance called not thinking about death and stuff all the time.
But seriously, In the broad scope of things, not giving a stuff about things (certain things that is) is the most beneficial and liberating thing there is. Aka Social Status, the opinion of apathetic people, and the Ice Capades.
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another one of these threads
dumb ass teens
As a side note, these threads tend to just become depression circlejerks, where the OP tends to ignore constructive help and just respond to those who have a bleeding heart to his problem.
Constructive things like going outside, because the lack of Vitamin D over the winter is actually shown to cause depression. Instead, we just get "Oh it sucks to be you" "oh I know waaaah".
And like Twenky said, maybe you're just being a subconscious starfish. I know a lot of people who are "depressed" and they are generally the most hostile and easily aggravated people I know. Being an starfish is ok most of the time, (otherwise I might die) and is good to have fun with or convey a message (if used correctly) but outright hostility in the form of starfishry is not ok.