|MAD| Niven: I know
|MAD| Niven: Miika, can you tell me where the thought of Self Delete began?
Miika: When I saw what he commented on a girl's status on Facebook
Miika: Looked like he liked her
Miika: Or that may just be my paranoia
|MAD| Niven: What did he say on the status?
Miika: Well
Miika: Apparantly the girl's also in a suicidial mood I guess
Miika: And
Miika: He said
Miika: "~Runs over and grabs Kimberly in his arms then runs away holding her~ :3"
Miika: "~Still running away with her~ mineminemine"
Miika: :S
Miika: That made me flip
|MAD| Niven: And the person he said that to has the same suicidal thoughts?
Katamari007 ;-;: I don't think so
Miika: Nono
|MAD| Niven: Then who'd you say had suicidal thoughts
|MAD| Niven: wat
Katamari007 ;-;: she does
Miika: Uh
Miika: wait
|MAD| Niven: Miika: Apparantly the girl's also in a suicidial mood I guess
|MAD| Niven: wat
Miika: Yeah well I think she broke up with her boyfriend
Miika: from what I can read
|MAD| Niven: Oh I see
|MAD| Niven: So you and her have suicidal thoughts?
Miika: I guess
Miika: But I don't know her
|MAD| Niven: Now, why would you have these thoughts?
|MAD| Niven: What caused it?
|MAD| Niven: other than what he said
Miika: Well because of that
Miika: Well
Miika: he broke up with me some weeks ago
|MAD| Niven: How long have you two been going out
|MAD| Niven: o
Miika: also uh
Miika: for a year and 3 months or something
|MAD| Niven: I see
|MAD| Niven: Do you have any idea why he broke up with you?
Miika: Yes
Miika: Many reasons
|MAD| Niven: Elaborate.
Miika: One is that he thought I didn't care about him or something, since I didn't go on cam much, and I guess to him it seemed like I didn't think he was important
Miika: When he was sad or something, he needed to see me on cam
Miika: And I didn't always do that
Miika: But I didn't know how hard it was on him, until he explained it to me
|MAD| Niven: So when you weren't on cam, he immediatly got mad?
Miika: But that was after he broke up
|MAD| Niven: At you?
Miika: No
Miika: Just sad
|MAD| Niven: Oh
|MAD| Niven: It seems (I am not the only spy), and that your ex-boyfriend is a clinnger.
|MAD| Niven: I was like that once.
|MAD| Niven: Nosrsy
Miika: Well
Miika: Before he broke up
|MAD| Niven: I was, then I learnt that I clung too much. If I clung to much, I would miss her more the more I didnt see her
Miika: I was being a bit distant
|MAD| Niven: Oh
|MAD| Niven: How so?
Miika: But
Miika: I think that was because of the fact that we talked too much
Miika: So
Miika: I got kinda bored I guess?
Miika: But not saying I didn't like him anymore
Miika: I had those times before
|MAD| Niven: I see
Miika: And they would always go away
Miika: After like a week
Miika: So that may also have something to do with it
|MAD| Niven: And now, that you two have broken up and that he's found another girl, you have these suicidal thoghts?
Miika: Yes, because i feel so guilty for doing those things
|MAD| Niven: Guilty doing what?
|MAD| Niven: Not spending too much time with him
|MAD| Niven: ?
Miika: Not helping him more when he was sad
Miika: and such
|MAD| Niven: Why did he get sad?
|MAD| Niven: Was it because he couldnt see you?
Miika: Yeah
|MAD| Niven: Ok.
|MAD| Niven: So it seems to me
Katamari007 ;-;: yes, but she can't apologize because he's blocked her from everything
|MAD| Niven: That the more he clung on to you, the more he liked you. In the sense, he couldnt "let go of you"
|MAD| Niven: Well
Miika: Well yes, and that is what I don't get
Miika: Now he doesn't really need me anymore
Miika: cus
|MAD| Niven: If he's blocked you, you should move on. My best friend parted ways with me, and I didn't care after that. I just got a new best friend.
Miika: He told me that he cried several times because he couldn't see me
|MAD| Niven: Have you witnessed this?
|MAD| Niven: i mean
|MAD| Niven: oderp
Miika: Well he told me that
Miika: And he did seem sad I guess
Miika: I hate that I was so selfish
|MAD| Niven: And so, he missed you so much, that when he couldnt see you as much, he broke up with you?
|MAD| Niven: And blocked you?
Miika: I didn't go on cam because either I felt too ugly or I was too tired
Miika: Well
Miika: It was also due to the fact that his dad probably had a talk with him, since he wanted to move here
Miika: And use his college money for it
Miika: So he wouldn't be able to to go to college
|MAD| Niven: So this guy was a person you met on the internet?
Miika: Yeah
|MAD| Niven: And he wanted to come to you?
|MAD| Niven: In real life?
Miika: Yes
|MAD| Niven: Ok, this has gone a whole new level.
Miika: wat
|MAD| Niven: First, please, for the love of god (and me and kat), please don't commit Self Delete.
Miika: If I don't get to talk to him before midnight tomorrow, I think I will. Sorry.
|MAD| Niven: I've read, and pretty sure kat has read, about people who met people on the web, and got sooo clinged on to it, that if he didnt see her, they did Self Delete.
|MAD| Niven: Miika
|MAD| Niven: There are plenty of other people
Miika: Don't say that
|MAD| Niven: Probably real life people where you live.
Katamari007 ;-;: that's what I tried to say
Miika: There is only one CapT
Miika: And I want that CapT, and if it's not as a boyfriend, at least as a friend
|MAD| Niven: Miika, you have to get this in your head, internet relationships moslty dont work.
|MAD| Niven: Well, if he doesn't want to talk to you
|MAD| Niven: thats his fault
|MAD| Niven: Ignore him. Just watch him come crawling back to yuo.
Miika: Well, I think it's because he thinks I will be all dramatic
Miika: But I won't, not after al lthe pain I have been through
Miika: I will not forget up again
Miika: Also no
Miika: He won't
Miika: I know he won't
|MAD| Niven: How do you know?
Miika: Because he already has his friends
Miika: He doesn't need me
Miika: Well
Miika: Not saying that but
Miika: Like
Miika: He CAN do without me
Miika: if he wants to
Katamari007 ;-;: exactly
Katamari007 ;-;: he CAN
Katamari007 ;-;: doesn't mean he WILL
|MAD| Niven: If he doesn't need you, why do you need him?
|MAD| Niven: I know you two have been going out
|MAD| Niven: for a pretty long time
|MAD| Niven: but Miika, this is the internet.
Miika: Because I love him. And not only as in love but also as a friend
Miika left chat.
|MAD| Niven: Then get a new friend! Kat's your friend!
|MAD| Niven: o forget
|MAD| Niven: oh fucccccccccck
|MAD| Niven: kat
Katamari007 ;-;: I'm alredy a friend
|MAD| Niven: oh god
|MAD| Niven: whered miika go
|MAD| Niven: fuuuuuuck
Katamari007 ;-;: her fault
|MAD| Niven: i just dont want ehr to Self Delete
|MAD| Niven: This is the internet, where people do stupid thing
|MAD| Niven: s
|MAD| Niven: like this
|MAD| Niven: fu kat
|MAD| Niven: hue
|MAD| Niven: etc
|MAD| Niven: I just cant get the fact why she woudl even dare to date someone on the internet
Miika has been invited to chat.
Katamari007 ;-;: she got all that btw
Miika entered chat.
Miika: hi
Miika: also
Miika: i didn't mean to date him
Miika: he was just being very friendly and stuff
Miika: when i had a hard time
Miika: :S
Miika: and then he was saying that he liked me and stuff
|MAD| Niven: Almost everyone on my friends list is friendly to me
Katamari007 ;-;: almost
Miika: so before i knew it i loved him
|MAD| Niven: Even Kat got me $100 worht of games
|MAD| Niven: Doesn't mean I love him
Miika: I know
Miika: but
Miika: like
Katamari007 ;-;: I'm overly generous :c
Miika: not just nice
Miika: D:
|MAD| Niven: lolkat
Katamari007 ;-;: oh stuff
|MAD| Niven: miika, do you still love him?
Katamari007 ;-;: Why do I feel like Capt all of a suden
|MAD| Niven: BECAUSE YOU ARE
|MAD| Niven: HUHE
|MAD| Niven: ahem
Miika: Yes I do
|MAD| Niven: Why
|MAD| Niven: If he's blocked you
|MAD| Niven: From everything
|MAD| Niven: Why do you still dare to love ih
Miika: Because he is the one for me
Miika: We had a relationship over a year
Katamari007 ;-;: do you beleieve you did much during the relationship?
Miika: At some points yes
Katamari007 ;-;: it might have been a yearm but was the year worth it to want to still be with him?
Miika: Yes
Katamari007 ;-;: How so?
Miika: I bought him stuff and sent him it
Miika: there were times i did go on cam much
Miika: or mic'd
Miika: i wrote him cheezy poems
Miika: lol
Miika: cus i loved him
Miika: and wanted to make him happy
Katamari007 ;-;: Was he happy?
Miika: Yeah mostly
Miika: If he went on cam much yes
Katamari007 ;-;: Most importantly, did he respect you for the personality
Katamari007 ;-;: or the gifts?
Miika: Yeah
Katamari007 ;-;: which one
Katamari007 ;-;: :U
Miika: He was always holding the little plushy I gave him
Miika: And wearing the shirt I gave him
Katamari007 ;-;: ah
Miika: I also went to earn the money myself
Katamari007 ;-;: Are you sure he didn't want to make an impression
Miika: Nono
Miika: He looked happy
Katamari007 ;-;: ah
Katamari007 ;-;: It seems like this was a very good relationship
Katamari007 ;-;: and
Katamari007 ;-;: I don't know what to say
Katamari007 ;-;: as I am not good with this
Miika: :(
Katamari007 ;-;: well
Katamari007 ;-;: forget
Katamari007 ;-;: I tried
Katamari007 ;-;: I really did
Miika: <3
Katamari007 ;-;: yeah
Katamari007 ;-;: but
Katamari007 ;-;: now I'm just mad
Katamari007 ;-;: I tried to the best of my ability
Miika: D:
Katamari007 ;-;: and I believe I have failed
Miika: no mad
Katamari007 ;-;: I don't know what else to feel
Katamari007 ;-;: I'm not going to ignore the damn thing
Miika: lovey
Miika: FEEL loveY NOW
Katamari007 ;-;: There is no way I could have a positive outloook from the whole thing
Katamari007 ;-;: also what
Miika: :c
Miika: fel sxy
Katamari007 ;-;: what
Katamari007 ;-;: why
Katamari007 ;-;: ubt seriously
Katamari007 ;-;: I tried to convince you for 3 hours
Katamari007 ;-;: and it seems like nothing worked
Miika: well i'm a bit calmer now
Katamari007 ;-;: Do you have the same thoughts?
Katamari007 ;-;: like you said, this calmness is probably gonna last for like 10 minutes
Miika: uh i dunno
Miika: :S
Katamari007 ;-;: just try to feel the same way as you do for as long as you can
Miika: :S
Katamari007 ;-;: ok
Katamari007 ;-;: look
|MAD| Niven: Sorry, my mom walked in
Katamari007 ;-;: :I
Katamari007 ;-;: anyways
Katamari007 ;-;: I'm sorry
|MAD| Niven: And I didnt want her seeing me talking
|MAD| Niven: ANyways Im back
Katamari007 ;-;: I'm just pretty frustrated right now
|MAD| Niven: Why
|MAD| Niven: What happened?
Katamari007 ;-;: just look
Miika: yes?
Katamari007 ;-;: hello
|MAD| Niven: wat
Miika: hello
|MAD| Niven: .-.
