Please don't come into this topic to accuse me of being an attention whore or a liar, thank you gentlemen.
I don't know if this is the proper place to post this, but I've realized I've been slowly descending into insanity for as long as I can remember, and I need help really bad. It started when I was really young, and I'd have nightmares of people with long fingers and big dogs. I got really scared all the time and wouldn't want to ever leave my bed because they were hiding under there waiting to get me, and I would see them moving around in the darkness, crawling to my bedside, speaking in something I can only describe as similar to parseltongue from Harry Potter but I hadn't seen the movies then so I didn't know what that was
fast forward to a few years ago and I started hearing voices. they promised to tell me all the secrets there were to know. I fought them every single day. I became really depressed because it took so much effort to fight them. one day I decided to die. it didn't work.
I wake up most nights now thinking I'm covered in spiders and they feel real and I see them but then they go back into my pores and I'm full of them inside. I don't know what to do about them. I want to die a lot. it never works. I won't try again, it's too disappointing
How can I get help? I need help. therapy does nothing and medicine makes it worse
