I've been slowly going insane and I need help

[Niff]

Just find a person who has all possible degrees in mental stuff like this, tell your parents and they'll do what they can, try not to think of things like this, think of what made you happy as a child, ignore the "voices" and if they keep bugging ask them what do they want from you, make sure you don't give into the darkness.

get drugs

This could be a last resort, ask the doctors and other medical people if you can use medical marijuana, it can help.

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[rockslide26]

Just find a person who has all possible degrees in mental stuff like this, tell your parents and they'll do what they can, try not to think of things like this, think of what made you happy as a child, ignore the "voices" and if they keep bugging ask them what do they want from you, make sure you don't give into the darkness.

This could be a last resort, ask the doctors and other medical people if you can use medical marijuana, it can help.

well this is the 5th time I decided to die but it never works and I need help but nobody can offer that cause I have few options
1 go to a therapist and not fix anything
2 go to the mental hospital which is more like jail than a hospital and I'm not going back

nothing else helps and they talk to me every day like now they're mad because im a failure and it didnt work and i disappoint everyone

[Alyx Vance]

Have you tried staying at someone elses house? Maybe its home stress.

[naturemon]

yeah, fourth time it didn't loving work, and I don't want to go to the goddamned hospital because last time I was there they locked me up near dudes who rolled in their own stuff for fun.

That's exactly why I pretty much refuse to go to a hospital anymore, and with me they also took away anything that could entertain me at all, I assume to "keep me safe."

It did more harm being there than being home considering when home I have stuff to try to distract myself with, when I'm there I just have my thoughts.

get drugs

I don't exactly recommend this but yea, I would start to consider it if you think it'd help, being on drugs is better than being dead I suppose.

[rockslide26]

Have you tried staying at someone elses house? Maybe its home stress.

there's nobody to stay with, nobody wants me

That's exactly why I pretty much refuse to go to a hospital anymore, and with me they also took away anything that could entertain me at all, I assume to "keep me safe."

It did more harm being there than being home considering when home I have stuff to try to distract myself with, when I'm there I just have my thoughts.

I don't exactly recommend this but yea, I would start to consider it if you think it'd help, being on drugs is better than being dead I suppose.

well I'm not going back to the hospital and I don't know because I can't deal with anything really anymore

[TeslaCoil]

Where do you live? If you visit me I can council and stick with ya'

[Alyx Vance]

there's nobody to stay with, nobody wants me

I'm sure you have that one friend who'll let you stay with them for a bit.
Just try to get out of the house for a night and see what happens. Try to have people around you.

[naturemon]

there's nobody to stay with, nobody wants mewell I'm not going back to the hospital and I don't know because I can't deal with anything really anymore

I don't really have anything to recommend, I'm in the same sort of situation so if I had anything else to recommend I'd probably be better.

[rockslide26]

I'm sure you have that one friend who'll let you stay with them for a bit.
Just try to get out of the house for a night and see what happens. Try to have people around you.

until I go even more batstuff insane, I'm pretty sure my girlfriend is the only one who would take me in but I'm scared of her parents because they're so Asian and they hate everyone

[TeslaCoil]

they're so Asian and they hate everyone

Well you DID eat their dog and framed them for it 

[Alyx Vance]

Look, I've been in your shoes. I know what insanity is like, I know that its hard to take.
When you  start to hear stuff try to imagine something saying it then PUSH IT OUT OF YOUR HEAD! Push it right out! Imagine a damned car hitting it or something.

Worked for me, still does.

[Zalot]

drink an amnesia potion

[PaintsForum]

You should go to a church or something. I've seen people with worse problems than yours get them sorted out that way.

[Alyx Vance]

You should go to a church or something. I've seen people with worse problems than yours get them sorted out that way.

I went to church after 8-10 years of not going.
I then remembered why I didn't go for  those years. That and I hated the van ride. (aside from the driver I was the oldest person unless this one girl came)
The pastor was the driver, it was a small small church

[Niff]

You should go to a church or something. I've seen people with worse problems than yours get them sorted out that way.

This is actually a good idea, you could be, well... "possessed" by Satan.

And in your dreams, what do you mean by "Killing yourself" and it not working

Whats preventing you from "dieing"?

Please tell us more about your dreams, if your not comfortable with sharing it to everyone here, then you can P.M. me...

Just explain more.