I took stuffloads of pills and didn't die because it never works
There are these people called therapists. You should talk to them.
no they'll send me to a hospital
yes exactlyyou want to get help right?that is precisely how you get it
last time I went it was no help, and you can't leave until they say you can so I'm not going back
If you're not going to take any reasonable suggestions then the point of this topic is really not in your best interest now is it?If you think you can find help here, then why so far has the only thing you've tried to do is kill yourself? I can only assume you planned to do that anyway. You're clearly whoring yourself out for attention. And it looks like its your cure too, because the longer you stay on this forum, the less you are actually trying to solve your "problem" if you have any at all.